Tears still wet my pillow after all it's only been three weeks and the fact that the case invovling his murder it's closed. It's going to be a long time before his mother Mrs.Walkins and I can move on about the lost of the one guy in this world we lived to spend our future with.
"Shakia, sweetie it's ok you can go home i'll be fine" Mrs. Walkins said as we walked into her little project apartment where picture of Taymar every where the fact that I was standing in what use to be the place we had our fondest memories and he wasn't there killed me inside and out. Mrs. Walkins was only thirty-six and having lost the two men that made her sarifice her youth at the young age of sixteen made her look older. It crazy because she and I didn't always get along. I can still in vision her coming to my house and pulling Tay be the ear yelling about how much of a little hoe I was looking back now it's funny being she didn't have a clue about me, but Tay seemed to know exactlly whut i was all about from the first day we met.
"Khalil K-MULA Jones, was founded yesterday in the alley way on Oakwood Ave" The principal of Orange High School made the morning announcements. Grabbing my stuff I broke down in front of everyone. When the cops came to our house last night everything felt so un-real and still do it's like i smoked some bad weed and was hallucating.
"Sha baby you okay, I mean I know thats your brother and all but he's in a better place and it sure as hell bets being locked up for another 10 years for something stupid" Milly was intruppted by the palm of my hand against her face as my close friends she should know what I approve of and what I don't.
"That's MY FUCKING BROTHER yur talking about BITCH"! I yelled everyone stopped as if they forgot that the guy that many was happy at his demise and some was sadden being they lost a lover,homie and boss had a little sisther he protected if there wasn't anything else in this world he didn't give a fuck about. Milly laid on the floor holding the side of her face screaming
"Ouch, I'M SORRY yuh CRAZY BITCH" Any other day I would've laughed that name off and call her on back but today I grabbed her up off the floor and slammed her into a near by locker.
The crowd roar "DAMN!!!!!!!!!!!" as Milly walked away saying
"You not in your right mind i'm not gunna even hold yuhto whut yuh just did" I turned to the crowd yelling
"Does anyone else have something to fucking say about my brother"!! everyone backed up I ran outside crying skipping school was never nothing new to me altough it was my first time doing it alone I normally have my whole clique out here cause I was the boss like that and thinking bout Mula it ran in our genes. I bumped into big broad shoulders and paniced. Guys these days didn't care if you wasa female our not they'll curse you out as if you were born with testies just like they were.
"I'm sorry" I said in a sob hoping that who ever it was would take pitty and let me continue my trip far away so I could mourn in peace without the pictures the bootleg memorials and the fake grivers who tired to get stain off his name even in death.
"No i'm sorry I shouldn't have been standing in the middle of the sideway like that" I gave him a casual smile through my sobs and keep it moving.
"Wait Wait" he ran after me grabbing me by my arm.
"Aren't yuh Mula's little sisther Kia" He asked I never hada boy that close to me Mula bascially warned and scared every boy off having feel like i was unattractive for the main part of my life until I witness him challenge a guy with his eyes just because he offered to buy me a ice cream sandwich.
"Yea that would be me" I straighten my face a little and wiped my tears.
"I'm Taymar I hear alot about yuh from him but he never brought me around saying he was gunna have to kill the nigga that steal his little sisther heart. I felt flattered that he thought of me as that guy to his sister I never met" I giggled a little bit thinking about how my big brother knew to much about me and whut I considered my type.
"O God Mula use to bully yuh to, but I do see why" I laughed out loud
"So I know yuh a senior and all but i'm pretty sure that school isn't finished not even for those who only have one or two classes" He laughed looking at me up and down.
"So you my daddy now or wait did Mula put yuh next in his line of business and the first thing on this list was to watch out for his baby sister" I Laughed again but got quiet when I noticed I was the only one.
"He asked me to take care of his busines. his sister was my own curiousity" I grew quiet as everything in me started to feel like it was on fire.
"Oh really now you see here were do we go from here" I felt so good to finally be able to flirt without a cocky light skinned arm being wrapped around my neck although it felt wrong I was suppose to be mourning not flirting but for some reason it felt like Mula approved of it. "Hey how about we get to know each other more let's go to the mall or something" His eyes lit up and i'm pretty sure mines did to I lose my brutha and somehow ended up going on my first date.
"Sure why not" I scream in excitment as Tay walked to his car and unlocked the door.
"Wait a minute ID check gotta make sure you 18 at least can have the mall cops stopping us and you a minor" I flashed out the ID and rolled me eyes
"Since you wanna know my age thinking you slick what's your I don't wanna be seen with no body that got kids in the elementary school" He laughed showing me his ID.
"I'm just few months older then you I turned 19 last month" I blushed in embrassment as he opened the door for me cracking up.
Jersey Gardens was packed kids everywhere which reminded me that school was soon about to be out I was about to graduate and prom was right around the corner all of a sudden. My to do list was the only thing in my headas this handsome guy was staring at me.
"Want to go to CHILI'S"? I looked at him like he was crazy.
"Now yuh know yuh want some Chili's Baby Back Ribs my treat" He continued after I laughed at the fact he sung those words like the song on there commerical. I smiled
"Sure I don't see why not" he grabbed my hand and yelled outt
"a table for two" to the waitress who looked to be happy to have a costumer so early.
Tay sat down and grabbed my hand.
"Anything you want today you got it think of me as Santa Clause without out the bread and the extra pounds and the only time you gonna hear me say HO.HO.HO is when i'm tryna keep my Hoes in check".
The first time we met was to magical he brought me everything I wanted and the sad part is I didn't even ask for them he just simply saw me looking at it and somehow got it without tell me . Yes I knew right then a there he wasa drug-dealer and the money he was spending on me was 9x outta 10 my older brother's but it all boiled down to him not having to spend anything on me at all he could've let me walk on by that dayand we could've been stranger for ever. Everything wasn't prefect between Tay and I though seems like after the 1 year marker I had to start fighting for my title..
"Dance" Nicki Minaj verse ringtone went off I flew to my White I-Phone 5 the number was blocked but everytime I looked at the picture of my baby with my name tatted across his chest made me smile.
"Hello" I answered with a puzzled voice not knowing if I should have let that call have gone to the voicemail.
"Kia, This Tonya" Some female that was so racthet that it was all up in her voice chimed through the phone.
"Okay Tonya still don't know you" I said professionally see even if your man is just a hood pharcamist. He is still a business man and you have to handle his business as his woman as if he was Donald Trump and keep his shit organized as if he was Bill Gates.
" I know bitch i'm his baby momma tell his bitch ass he better come see about Qua instead of spending all his money on your bitch ass" Looking around as if I wasn't by myself I started laughing at shortty she done called mea bitch to many mother fucking times for someone i didn't even know .
"Look you Peasey Head, Non-2+2 knowing, Boqua qua looking BITCH. Don't yuh ever call my fucking phone again with this bullshit yuh needa be spending your time looking up and down central ave for that monkey looking child of yours father...stupid bitch "!! I waited for a respone but shorrty banged on me part of me wanted to say it wasn't true but a woman's intention never leads her wrong.
Tay came in smiling and ran up to kiss me on the cheek..
"Who the fuck is Tonya and why the fuck is she calling me" I yelled he sat down looking as if he was about to tell a lie.
"Don't fucking lie to me Tay" I continued already crossing over into my alter ego.
"She's a girl who claim I got her knocked up, I swear I meant to tell you but the time never seemed right" He pulled out a black & mild and lit it take a few pulls.
"The questions are 1: is it true? 2: was it on me? and 3:How could yuh keep this from me?"
Tay looked at me with his big puppy dog eyes as he took more pulls off his mild. I walked over snatching the mild outta his mouth.
"Your guna FUCKING answer me" ? I yelled only one answer was the one I really wanted.
"I think she lying number one but i'm not sure, Yes it happened when we first go to together, and because I was afraid of losing you" Tay said as he looked as if his whole world has crumbled.
"Fuck Tay, Why i'm been riding with youhfrom the beginningand never even have been attracted to anyone else to have came close to FUCKING them" I started to cry it was stranged I never cried hard for anything before but at that moment I realized why my brutha felt like he had to be a protector cause heart-break was a painful bitch.
Months have gone by and we wanted for the results of the DNA test and this day I knew it was in the mail. I went out to the maik box with black shades on because I have to smoke a blunt before faceing whut was behind that seal of the envelop. Breaking the seal open seemed to have been the loudest ripping paper I ever heard.
Pulling the paper out and jumped up for joy at the results.
"Baby, Baby The baby ain't yours" I yelled through the phone as I noticed the signature on that letter match a few othe he had stored in a shoe box underneath his bed. I ain't never been the type to snoop through my man thing cause they always said with no trust there's no relationship but this time I had to fucking know.
Tay walked into another suprise all 5 letteres was lined up on the table I sat with my bag pack I was sure gunna leave that day until he dropped on his knees and flashed the ring of my dreams.
Of course I said yes but those letters did too.
Gina,Makayla,Taquan,Shamika and La La all showned up to their grandma's house. Nessah,Quanna, and Mecca hugged me as they walked in feels good to know they knew what place they was in but shit I would to if a crazy bitch like myself was haunting me down to whoop my ass. My older brother taught me to well it's like he had trained me for this life style and I didn't know he had also trained me for the ultimate ending of it all.
"Shakia can you help me with the lay out the dishes" Mrs.Walkins asked as I stood upand automatically heading into the dining room.
My head started turning around and around.
"Mrs.Walkins give me a minute I don't feel to well " i said running to the batroom and throwing up all over the place.
As I walked out all eyes where on me
"Your Preggo" Neesha yelled and I laughed it off.
"Girl I wish I was" I said cracking up.
"Kia baby when was your last visit from the aunt we all hate " Quanna asked giving me the eyes
"Um I don't remember" I said thinking really hard.
"God is Good, you gave this girl the best gift ever to remember my son" Mrs.Waklins yelled although I wasn't as thrilled as everyone else there was alotta how am I gonna handle this roaming around in my brain.
"Oh my God,Sha yuh an't gunna believe who did this" I looked puzzled as Milly stormed in the room.
"Who did what?" I said sitting down.
"You know whut i'm talking about but rumors saying it had something to to with Gunna and them it's all over the news" My world crashed as I remember how they beef has started."Damn girl where your man" This dark skin nigga from what seems to have been from the country jumped in front of me.
"Right Here" Tay made his presence know but the issue didn't start there the issue started when Tay founded out that his motive for me was all wrong because the man he Ayce that he worked for was Mula's number on enemy.
Gunna tried for weeksand weeks talking about all he can do for my that my baby couldn't. He even went as for as throwing stacks at me in the middle of the street like I was som trick that needed to be impressed by money. Tay was pissed and handle his business.
"Baby imma be right back" Tay said kissing me on the forehead I was 4 month preggo and the last thing I needed wasa baby at 19 with no father. So I got Milly to follow him. We pulled up a few house close to the alley way he was taking care of his business in.
"Yo Sha something not right them niggas like 20 deep in that muthafucka and it's just Tay" Milly grabbed myarm pointing to the black van with tinted windows but somehow Milly always saw through them shits like she had x-ray vision. I started to run behind car and Milly followed knowing that if she didn't want me to react she should have keep her fucking mouth closed. We got there to Gunna with the 9mm to Tay's head as he was surrounded I jumped out with my gat.
"So Gunna whut kinda unfair shit is this" I said calm. He roared with laugther
"So you got your little bitch to save you huh" and cocked the pistol in his hand.
"Shot him imma shot yuh either way so think carefully" I started bugging as Milly had the other nigga on shakes.
"Kia whut the fuck are you doing get the fuck away from here" Tay yelled at me with a tears rolling outta hi eye.
"I ain't leaving without you" I yelled.
Gunna untied him .
"Go ahead go home it ain't yuh i want anyways" Tay ran to hug me as the fire went off from both sides as Milly pushed us down and opened fire getting Gunna in his leg.
Milly ran to get the car as Tay and I walked off and just as quick as we started the corner a bullet flew straight in my stomach.
"MY BABY...! MY BABY!!" I screamed as I was being rushed to the hostpial blood was everywhere and the baby was lost to history but the war between Tay and Gunna grew more dangerous then before and the threats were coming bout niether on of us took them serious but more likea joke.
"Who, You gotta be fucking kinding me " I yelled through the music that was playing.
"Nope I wish I was" I was so in rage I gave Mama Walkins a kiss and headed out the door Milly followed me. Mumbling
"History repeats it's self" I strapped in Tay 9mm to my waist and watch Gunna and his crew bust moves all day until it became dark and head to the park as they always do.
I pulled my hair back in a tight bun and slide on some sweat pants and a beater with some combat bootsand walked out the car and as always Milly followed.
"Damn them girls look good,Im going for the one in the sweats" Gunna said out loud make my stomach curled.
I walked slowly and the picked up speed as I got close. Walking pass the bench pretending was the hardest but it was the smartest as I pulled the gat out and placed it to his head.
"Oh shit" His boys yelled running off leaving him in the park for dead.
"Damn I would think a nigga like you would have a better fucking team" I cocked the gat and placed it back at his head.
"I'm sorry I swear i'm not the onewho set that house of fire I didn't even know he was there" Gunna cried like a little bitch as I played with the trigger Milly started to look pale which stoped me.
"Whut's Wrong" I asked looking crazy but not tryna look weak.
"He's tell the truth" Milly choked up as she started to walk away.
"If I was you I wouldn't kill the innocent when the body was never founded" I jumped up and turned around to the arms of the man I love.
"I ain't leaving without yuh"
The End.
*Sorry you guys I had one free day to get this Valentine Day Segment Completed so I pulled this from the Achieve too. I apologize for the many typos and misspelled wrote any of my work especially this one I just posted it from an archived location without proofing . I would also like to apologize for the language in this one my writing style was a little different when I wrote this. Bare with me I am trying to improve my skill and review my work. I'm juggling a lot of things right now but this Blog is the only I'm doing for me.
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