Are You Moving To Fast? (Relationship Advice)

Most of us who have been in relationship with that special someone have always came to a point where they have wondered if they were moving too fast. In the beginning of our relationships one thing that both individuals can agree upon is that they are fond of each other but sometimes that fondness could be wrongfully read as something a little bit deeper than it should be.

The touching and the smooches and the “three word phrase” that have the ability to make or break a relationship is the point we all want to get to. However, they’re factors to consider when the relationship is still young.  Especially, for someone who haven’t been in the dating scene for a long time.

As human beings we have to understand that we all have the same goals and finding that someone that is truly ours until we take our last breath happens to be one of them. We are genetically made up to crave love and affection. After being single of a long period of time when getting emotionally involved with someone again we tend to act on the things that we were missing a lot quicker then we should. It’s like going on diet for months and when we decide to treat ourselves to something sweet, then end up eating a whole container of ice cream. When our bodies are deprived we tend to go over board when we reintroduce those things back into our lives.

We have to read our relationships. By asking ourselves a few questions. Questions such as is this love I’m feeling or lust? These are two different feelings associated with budding unions between two individuals. Lust is something that is more physical and love is more emotional. When you figure out your answer to this question. Then you should ask yourself the question of how much do you know about the person your with? People tend to naturally show others what they feel would make them look good in that person eyes. Hiding the ugly aspects of their lives until that person is emotionally invested in them. For Example: Most of the brave women who have endured abuse and spoke out about it tends to start their stories along the lines of a statement that sounds like: “He was so sweet at first then something changed”. Give your self time to read the person you’re with. Give yourself 90 days to gather information (Pay attention to those red flags, behavioral flaws and etc). After those 90 days (three months) you should have a general idea of who you’re dealing with but don’t stop reading the person your with. Also pay attention to how that person interact with others besides you. Based on that you would develop a sense of how that person is in different situations. For example: If a guy is trash talking his ex or the mother of his child to you. Then there’s a chance he would do the same thing to you if things don’t work out.

These are a few ways to discover whether you should take your relationship to another level. Just be smart about it because most of us are crossing that bridge of being too old to not only be playing games but wasting time that could be spent bettering yourself for “the right person”.

I hope this helped someone!!

Love You, Guy! Xoxoxo

Petals Falling Until Next Time!

Become a better you in between relationships!

Many people tend to dread being single. Especially, in these colder months (wink, wink) but sometimes we have to understand that because we are single doesn't mean that we are undesirable or unattractive. We do not have to be defined by being in a relationship with another person. I know so many women that are satisfied with having a piece of a man instead of not having one at all. They would endure the cheating, lying, abuse, and etc all because they don't want to be single. 

People have to understand that in between relationships is for healing and reinventing yourself. I personally could never understand how a person can go from relationship to relationship. If you truly care about someone there isn't anyway in the world that the next day you can be with someone else if your able to do that then you never felt as deep about that person as you thought (that another topic for another blog  )

In between relationships is the time for you to reflect, Discover what you really want in a partner , Evaluate yourself and etc. When you do these thing not only would the process of letting go become easier but you would grow as a person.

For Example: I've been single for sometime now. After my last so called relationship. I went through a lot internally it took awhile but now I'm at a point in my life were I know what I want and anything the seems like the total opposite gets dropped quickly. I'm a woman that deserves the best of the best someone that is truly given to me from God. So the moment a guy comes off sideways I side swipe and keep it moving. I personally have a lot to offer to a relationship and if a guy can't see that then he ain't for me. This is something I would have never discovered if I had became a serial dater after that relationship.

What I'm saying is become a better you. If you feel like you want to become physically, emotionally, and mentally healthier between relationships then do that. Maybe during your self evaluation period you discovered somethings within your self that you aren't please with that may have contribute to the fall of your pervious relationship it's ok work on it. Whatever. you decide to do never enter into a relationship completely fragile. Man aren't looking for broken hearted miserable paranoid females but women they can build a empire with and you can build a stable empire with a unstable empress  and vice versa.

Hope this helped someone!

Love You Guys!

Petals Falling Until Next Time!

Sociology Highlights: Most Memoriable Lesson

This was the assignment I had to do during my second week in sociology. We had to watch Genie:  Secret of the Wild Child" https://youtu.be/hmdycJQi4QA and in a few sentences answer questions based on the YouTube video. One of the many questions stood out to me and that we the one regarding rather we though she was treated as a patient or a research subject. The reason why I'm sharing this assignment with you guys is because it shows us how much of human identity is contribute through the society in which they are apart from and the differences in a person who was and wasn't a victim of social isolation. This lesson was informative in many different ways and emotional and others. It just go to show you that people really don't chose how they turn out and what we think makes us individual human being with our own sense of self can still be linked to the one thing we all try to rebel against society.



Tatiana Omari

Sociology  122

Professor John Wilkins

9/27/2015

The Wild Child known as Genie

Genie was found after years of extreme isolation at the age of thirteen she was unable to perform many task expected of someone in her age group. She wasn’t able to talk, had a bunny walk, and possessed other animalistic characteristics such as (sniffing, spitting, and clawing). Shortly after her discovery she became a patient at the Children Hospital in Los Angles, California. During this time I believe she was looked at as a patient because she was known to win the hearts of many. The doctors and scientists that worked with her genuinely wanted to provide her with everything she needed in order to one day be considered the social norm of any human being. During a few years of treatment she began to develop certain human tendencies such has emotions, physical sensations, and speech. She also began to understand social structure through the social interactions with others. 

They’re many factor that make one think that Genie became more of a research subject then a patient after awhile. One being the study of “”. Dr. Jean Marc Gaspard Itard took on Victor’s case with intentions to gain admiration for being the first to socialize a wild child. When failing to do so Dr. Itard abandoned Victor. As stated in the video “Victor was an opportunity to see a human being stripped of society and culture”. I think after watching the movie “The Wild Child” which was a portrayal of Dr. Itard’s work Victor. Some individuals began to look at Genie’s case in the same manor. They wanted to socialize her for other reasons besides bettering her life. Another reason I think she became a research subject is her sleep study test results. Discovering that she had an abnormal brain pattern sparked the debate on rather she became mentally retarded during her years of isolation or had she been born that way. Which made her seem to have been more of a subject of fascination to research about more so then a patient who needs recovery from years of extreme abuse and isolation. Especially, after the funds for her treatment ran out and she was simply placed back into a system where she would endure even more abuse in the hand of her numerous foster parents.

Overall, Genie’s story is a very sad but educational one. Being that one who look into it from a sociological point of view would understand that socialization pay a huge part in how we developed into who we all are today.

Blog Updates!

Okay for the few of my roses that read my blog regularly. I am happy to announce that I have reached my goal of 1,000 views for this year.

I would continue to create content and lately I have been thinking bout making a move to a better platform something that would be so much more enjoyable to look at and read.

I'm thinking about creating a website for my blog and if I decide to go along with that idea it would be up by March of next year.

I'm honestly trying my hardest to update content on this blog but sometimes the only typing I'm trying to do is regarding homework, school projects, and etc...

Would you like to see my blog as a website?
Should I become a little more established?
Do you think everything is fine the way it is?

Your feedback is welcomed!

The Power of Self Belief

The Power of Self Belief

In life they're many decisions that we as growing individuals would decide to make. Rather those decisions are to start your own business, chase your dream, change your body image, or whatever your thing would make life better for you.

During these times in our lives we would realize that those around us aren't as supportive as we thought they would be or some are just down right discarding your ambitions because they don't believe you can achieve certain goals within your life.

You have to also realize that at the end of the it doesn't matter what those people think but how you view yourself. If you believe that you can do it no one and their negativity should be able to discourage you.

For every negative view on your dreams. It should be another spark within you that make you what to fight harder to achieve them. However, I'm not saying that you should disregard positive criticism. Which would only come from critics that what to see you grow and become better.

This is were you have to be able to tell the difference between positive criticism and straight disrespect on your trade it's simple but can be confusing. A person who is a positive critic would never tell you to quit but suggest ways you can approve (One short way to tell the difference). Even with this you have to believe in your self enough to determine rather you agree with their advice are not.

Sorry, I got off topic a bit!

Anywho, never let the lack of love towards your dream or the amount of time it takes for you to accomplish your dreams hinder you from pursuing them further. 

There's are going to be many times where people aren't going to see your vision. Times where they would classify those visions as nonsensical or immature. Times where it seems like time is running out or your becoming to old to accomplish these goals and dreams

Don't believe the lies from the enemy lingering in your mind. Keep your faith, hope, and you drive to reach for your personal stars no matter how far away they may seem! If you haven't started to reach for those stars because of other people views on them. Then start them today! Stop waiting for a fan base and other people to believe in you.

Hope this helped someone!

Love You Guys! xoxoxo!

Petals Falling Until Next Time!

Jayson: Chapter Three: Opening the Gate

The ride to the house was a quiet one. Sina and Azania looked at each other like they were crazy for letting complete strangers come inside their home. Have their complete boredom have gotten to them so much that they forgot the first rule of an educated adult?

“So how do you guys like it here so far”?  Sapphire asked breaking the awkward silence.

Azania turned around smirking “It’s ite ,boring ass fuck but it’s cool, not used to this peaceful shit though”.

Maurice smiled back at her but frowned as they pulled into the drive way. It was almost has if he knew what awaited him but it was forbidden to speak about it.

“Looks a lot different since the last time we been here” Penelope said as her eyes roamed the  driveway.

“It really does” Emerald said as she started to shake as she stepped out of the car. Abigail walked over to her sister handing her a thick sweater. Sapphire stared at Emerald realizing it was to soon to freak out in front of Sina and Azania.  However, Roses always made Emerald weak like they physically sucked the power out of her.  She was the only Blackwilt in generations that struggled with this allergy since their Great Great Grand Mother Effy.

Azania plopped on the couch waiting for all the adventure Maurice was talking about in the club. When Emerald passed out on the floor the upon entering through their front door. The Blackwilts then surrounded her in a circle chanting something then touching her until she rose in the air spinning around and around in a circle. Maurice yelled some funny word causing Emerald whole body to jerk back until she landed back on the floor. Azania was now on her feet as well “WHAT KINDA HOCUS POCUS SHIT WAS THAT”! she yelled as Emerald shook off  the tension and they all walked towards Sina and Azania. “This is the reason we were outcast” Sapphire said holding her head down afraid of what would happen next.

“So if your family were outcast for being witches and warlocks that makes us…? Maurice cut Sina off as he stood in front of them all.

“You have to come into your powers to know if it was passed down to you, as of now your just regular people”

The room then turned silence again. As Azania jumped up putting her hands on her wide hips.

“Ya’ll niggas here to help open that damn gate in the garden and show us this dungeon” she said grabbing Maurice by the arm.

He smiled finally realizing that their revelation didn’t affect how the girls saw him our his family. Sina jump in agreement as everyone else followed Maurice’s lead outside.

The door to the dungeon was on the far back side of the house camouflaged by a grandmother willow tree. Azania and Sina looked at each other as if it was their first time noticing the obvious. Sapphire touched the lock “Open up and let us see what you keep in secret under the tree” she chanted as she pulled the lock off opening the door.

“Everyone turn on your flash light” Maurice said as there wasn’t a speck of light to be seen.

It was what seemed to be 100 steep stone steps that lead almost what felt like 6 feet under the house.  There was an ire feeling attached to being down there. It was as if someone was watching them although there wasn’t any stories attached to this dark place.  Emerald switched on the main light illumining the whole dungeon that was just bare.

“Mr. Wilson use to hold all his liquor down here” Abigail said answering the silent questions Azania had been asking herself.

“The key to the gate is down here though” Maurice said confirming that this little trip wasn’t just for fun.

Sapphire circled the front area until see saw a crack in the wall she then popped out the brick hiding the key behind it.

“Ya’ll ready to see what behind the gate? She asked swinging the key in the air.

“You bitches could’ve just hocus pocused that shit open” Azania said rolling her eyes as they started picking up their flashlights, turned off the main light and started climbing back up the stairs.  As Sina climbed out the door she looked back realizing the light was back on and she saw him. The man in the window staring back at her with his finger on his heart shaped lips as if he was telling her not to say anything.

            Standing in the rose garden Azania was over joyed as the key was inserted into the gate she jumped up and down as the door open. Sapphire stared at her puzzled so did Maurice, Emerald, Penelope, and Abigail as they all took turns peeking inside. Sina pointed and froze before fainting. Azania then took a deep breath look inside the place she have been dying to crack open since day one and even she couldn’t find the words to say about what she saw…

…To Be Continued…

Start  A Conversation With Me…

• What do you think in behind that gate?
• Why do you think Jayson is only appearing to Sina?

You are not your mistakes!

Mistakes are very well something that every living human being or creature in general have experienced. We have all made them, they are those things that we learn and grow from. As children some of us had to write many lowercase "d's " before realizing that they weren't lowercase "b's" or we had to fall a few times before realizing that we should step over that "crooked crack in the side walk" instead of tripping on it. These mistakes never classified us as being stupid or clumsy children. So why is it that a few bad choices in our adolescences and early adulthood automatically paint a picture of who we are in the minds of fellow human beings?

Maybe some of us were more experimental sexually at an early age. That shouldn't be the sole reason that we are branded as being "A Hoe" "A Slut" or "Promiscuous" for our entire lives. Spending years trying to clear up your reputation (we all have one) only for some people to still classify you as such. For another example : Say you were (for lack of a better word) a thug. You was all about that street life. The drug dealing, gun slinging, lick hitting (robbery for those who don't know) and hoe selling (pimping) but you have changed your ways and aiming for a better more honest life. It's wrong for someone to classify you as a "Thug" when your trying to become a better man or woman.

You have to understand that some people tend to hold on to your pass as away to keep you in bondage. You could be a young woman who was recently engaged to the love of your life  and one of his homeboys that so happen to have known you during a certain period in your life could simply say "You can't turn a hoe into a house wife". You then find your self battling with those words to prove that you are worthy enough for true happiness all because of someone else perception of you based off of your mistakes. Rather you realize it our not his homeboy now have you in captivity trying to secure something that's suppose to already be yours, simply because he says you don't deserve it.

In contrary say your a young man struggling to make ends meet, but your comfortable in life. You have learned that you rather struggle and live a fulfilling straight and narrow life, but you past seems to follow you. Some criticize you for being responsibly broke (Having money to up keep your self but not living glamorous) your close friends never fail to remind you of how you lived your life. Some even encourage you to get back into it by make you feel worthless by saying  "He's a bum " "He ain't ish"  and etc. All because you decided to do things the right way and now you find yourself in a battle to prove that "The Hood Life" wasn't you but a phase you were going through

People tend to use others past mistakes as away to define them. You have to be able to realize that you are not your mistakes. As a matter of fact don't be ashamed of your mistakes from the get go. Only you know what your reasons where to do such things and sometimes even though our mistakes are partially our fault there are other players in it as well and those that condemn you do it on the bases of hearing a one sided story.

For the lack of a better example: Say that you met a guy and both of you establish a in a lovely relationship, but you know something isn't right.Later, you find out that you where the "Mistress" "Side Chick" or etc. People are now classifying you as a "Home Wrecker" without even considering the fact that you were being played too. It was your mistake because you should've walked away or confronted him when things didn't feel right. However, he was the one lying to the both of you and to save his own ass he decided to make it seem as if you were the one in the wrong by saying you were "Crazy" "Obsessed" "Delusional" and etc. Now he's classified as the good guy and your the pyscho chick.

You are not your mistakes. However, your mistakes have made you who you are today. If it wasn't for you being a "Wild" teenager you wouldn't know that you should carry your self differently now. If it wasn't for your failed relationships you wouldn't know that you deserve better. If it wasn't for your hangover you wouldn't know that you should drink in moderation and the list goes on.

Embrace being human, and never let anyone hold your mistakes over you as a way of crippling who you're destined to become.

I hope this helped someone!

Petals Falling Until Next Time!
Love You Guys! xoxo!

When Should You Let Go?

Sometimes letting go of something is the hardest thing for us to do. Rather it's a person, a item, or a situation. However, in order to grow they're somethings we have to part ways with.

We tend to hold on to people based on our past relationship with that person. We don't realize that what once made that relationship strong has faded away and as human being we constantly have hope that things would go back to the way they use to be. You have to understand that some individuals aren't meant to stay in our life forever. Like the saying goes "Some people are in you life for a reason, a season, or a lifetime". Discovering what purpose a person served within your life is crucial when trying to figure out if you should keep them around.

 When I was a teenager I was very rebellious during that period in my life I met a lot of people. Some were people that would hold a position in my life for the long haul and somewhere just there for the moment. When reflecting back on past friendships. I began to realize that most of my friends were gained through the carefree and wild attitude I once had and now that I'm more mature and conduct myself differently those people and myself no longer have anything in common. Which make it obvious that being a rebel was the glue that stuck us together and over the years that glue have lost it's tackiness.

Signs you need to let go..!

• If you are in any sort of a relationship with a person and you feel drained. No relationship should make you feel exhausted after being around that person. Now I'm meaning this as a recurrent feeling from being around this person not just a single occasion.
• If you have to prepare yourself to deal with that individual in a negative way . For Example: Say you and your home girl Keisha are planning to meet up later and you dread it to your soul, because Keisha just seem to carry around bad energy and you just know your gonna have a headache after being around her. So you make sure your either not sober upon linking up or have your turn up in a close range.( Simply because you going to need it before the night is over)
• If that person seems to low key diss you all the time. We have all had that friend you know that friend that for whatever reason can't compliment you without throwing in some shady ish. They say things like "Girl that dress is cute but that stomach tho" or " I see you in college now, if you didn't play around you would've been done" There's a thin line between being blunt and throwing shade.
• If that person act and treat you like you're beneath them.
• If you find your self in a competition all the time with that person.
• If that person make empty promises all that time. For Example: I once had a friend that would promise the moon and the sky and me being a silly billy I trusted her to come through when she said she would and every time she never did. However, she managed to be reliable when it came to everyone else. It didn't take long before our conversations became non-existing.
• If a person is hindering your personal growth.
• If a person tends to classify you by the mistakes you made in your past. Just because you made those mistakes doesn't mean that you deserve to be labeled according to them. (Check Out Tomorrows Blog for this topic)
• If that person just don't fit in your life anymore.

This list could go on forever but let's be honest we all know when a person have wore out their welcome in our lives. Moving on with your life is okay! Don't feel guilty for doing so.

Let me clarify somethings. Just because your letting those people go doesn't mean you do not care about them. In many cases if that person makes you feel a certain way. Than chances are you, yourself isn't sunshine and apple pie within their lives either. For the same reason your holding on they maybe holding on too. You just might have to be the one to break the bondage between the two of you in order for the both of you to flourish. Be honest with that person let them know how you feel and if there's room for changes. If you and that person could work on it then do so! For Example: Tell Keisha she carries bad energy and you feel drain when around her, Keisha may not recognize this herself and try to change because of your honesty, Improving your friendship with her in the long run. Now, when I say let go I mean it in the sense of loving that person from a distance and if there's value in that relationship then that bond would never actually break.

I really hoped this made sense (In didn't prewrite this one) and helped someone.

Love You Guys! XOXO!

Petals Falling Until Next Time!

Jayson: Chapter 2 (The Blackwilts)

The night was almost as similar as the day. Sina tossed and turned until her back ran raw. She couldn't get the image of the man she saw in the window out of her head. There was absolutely no way she was just seeing things and in some weird way she was regretting telling Azania about it. Like she should've kept him her little secret and by calling her sister's attention to it she would want to experience the site of him too.

He chiseled cheek bones and those hazel green eyes just pierced her soul as if they where summoning her to come close and like always she ran. In every situation she ran like she was running from Uche right now. She knew that one day he would find her and had no idea of what would come of it. He might actually kill her this time being that he use to come so close,only pulling back once it dawned on him that he actually had a ounce of feelings for her. It seemed so unfair for her to endure so much at such an young age but she did it so Azania wouldn't have to. So she would have a chance at a life that she didn't have and being with Uche made that possible.

Sina got out of the bed running her feet against the cold marble floors. She never had luxurious things but she was beginning to enjoy them. She yawned opening her window and spotted Azania trying to pull open that gate in the garden for the 100th time since they moved in a week ago. Sina threw on her robe dashing out the back door.

"Damnit leave that gate alone" Sina yelled startling her sister .

"Uggh, Sina you made me lose it" Azania yelled stomping her foot.

"Lose what"! Sina screamed back.

"The crack I made between the wall in the door" Azania said plopping down.

"We been here long enough to get out the house and out meet some people, you and that gate about to drive me fucking crazy" Sina yelled causing Azania to laugh.

"You sound like momma and look like daddy when you play angry" Sina rolled her eyes.

She hated any references that compare her to her mother. The last thing she wanted to hear was she was like her mother in any way.

"Lighten the fuck up, we really do needa be around other people besides each other. Azania said walking towards the house.

Roseboro, North Carolina was a small town with the population of 1,000. It was the kind of place that you envision when thinking about retiring in your old age. Everything was beautiful yet slow paced and quiet it was a wonder how the youth managed to have fun in such a place.

The Weeknd "I can't feel my face" chimed through the radio speakers.

"Its going down at Club Amethyst tonight" The DJ announced causing Sina to jump up in excitement.

"We def in there tonight" She yelled at Sina from the bathroom as Azania ransack her closet pulling out her black lace bodycon dress and black pumps. She was ready for some male attention and she was making sure that she was going to get some that night. Pinning her cherry red curly hair behind her left ear and lightly washing neutral shaded eyeshadow on her eyes. She might have been overlooked back home but this was her home now and she was going to make a name for herself.

Club Amethyst was more then both girls had expected.

"This damn sure ain't no hole in the wall" Sina said as she admired the purple velvet lounge sections and glass tile floor. For the first time sense they moved they actually felt like they was at home.

"Damn what the fuck ya'll looking at" Azania yelled at a group of girls who apparently wasn't appreciating the sight of new competition.

"Azania, stop it we came here to make friends not enemies" Sina grabbed her sister leading her to the nearest lounge area sitting down. Some tall mahogany brown skin girl walked over sitting across from them.

"Don't mind them, you two must be the heiress to "The Everlasting Rose" mansion".

"Yea, how you know" Sina said sliding over in the chair.

"Small town, I'm Sapphire by the way and those are my sisters Abigal, Penelope, and Emerald. Sapphire said motioning them to come over.

"We are the Blackwilt sisters" They all said in unsion.

"I'm Azania and this is my sister Sina" Azania said throwing her hand out.

"And we are the Wilson sisters" Sina said as she started to shake the hands of the girls across from them.

Emerald switched in her sit throwing her long black hair over her shoulders. As Penelope eyes widened.

"Wilson sisters!" Abigal said with such excitement. Causing Azania to peered at her strangely.

"We have heard so much about you two" Emerald said winking her eyes as Sapphire motioned for her to shut up.

"Your Grandmother and mines were best friends, we are happy to finally meet the girls we heard so much about" Sapphire said as she motioned the waitress for some drinks.

"Let's fill you in about this place, They're only 50 women and 54 men in our age group here. This is where we hang out this is our side of town the other side. Is Lilith ,NC which is mainly whites and conservative blacks this is the side of those that the rest of society didn't want. We are the misfits. Our ancestors were outcast here and made this our own everything you see here is ours." Emerald said grabbing a glassing of red wine off the platter.

Sina laughed "Outcast, Misfit, you gotta be fucking kidding me" she said in between chuckles.

"It's true, Sina" Some tall light man with tattoos said sliding in the lounge section.

"How the fuck you know my name" Sina went off standing up.

"Sit down, I'm Maurice a Blackwilt, have you seen ..." Maurice was ssshed by Sapphire.

"Have we seen what"? Azania said staring at all of them.

"They haven't even opened the gate yet" Penelope muttered

"Don't get her started with that damn gate" Sina said rolling her eyes.

"The gate"! Azania yelled in excitement "I knew that something was special about that gate,but I can't get it open!"

"you have to find the key first, it should be in the dungeon" Maurice said gazing at Azania.

"There's a dungeon to our house" Sina said in totally shock.

"Let's go see if we can open it together" Sapphire said as she tipped the waitress.

......to be continued....

Start a Conversation with me?

.Who do you think the Blackwilt are?

.Why do you think their ancestors were outcast?

.What do you think is in the gate?

Roses on a Budgets (Nail Art Junkie Edition)

Many of you may know that nail art is becoming a trend. There are more and more shows about nails and even more techniques popping up.
For a nail enthusiast like myself it could become extremely diffcult to keep up with these trends without breaking the bank and sometimes waiting forever for those packages from over seas to arrive with those rhinestones and studs you've been dying to try is just to much.

What if I told you guys that there was a site where nail art trends are just $1 dollar each.  They carry studs, pearls,  chunky glitter, laser wire, foil, and so much more.

I was so thrilled to have found this site www.dollarnailart.com (the name says it all)  it's any nail geeks dream site.

Instructions/Ideas

Chunky Glitters: 

• Chunky glitters are very versatile you can layer them over a thin layer of acrylic then encapsulate them with clear acrylic and top coat them with gel or top coat for a glassy design.
• Add them in glitter mixes to use with acrylic or gel
• Add a few pieces over your painted nails for at extra pop
• Cover your whole nail with it over your top coat

Studs:

• Studs can be used for an edgy look on your nails you can arrange them in many different ways over gel or nail glue to make your manicure look like your a rock star.

Laser Wire:

• This is one of those things that really look amazing encapsulate in gel or acrylic. If you not in to those products you can get away with placing them on tacky nail polish/nail glue and coat them with a thick top coat. (Looks like a science project on your hands)

Nail Foil:

• This is one of those nail art things that saves you a lot of work but still looks amazing. All you have to do is apply the glue, it would be milky but wait until it turns clear. Press on the foil quickly then pull is up for cool effects. Top with clear top coat/gel top coat for shine and protection.

Here are some of the things I got from them:

Studs!

  

Sequins or Chunky Glitter

Stars or Chunky Glitter

 

A lot of studs and Chunky Glitter

  

Nail Foil

  It really doesn't have to be costly for your nails to look amazing!

Here are some rough designs I came up with:

Ice Box Heart
I encapsulated blue sequins and hearts in gel
toping it with a clear heart 3d nail piece.

Gold Tribal
I placed a stripe of foil gel down the middle.
Add the nail foil.
Encapsulated with gel
Added a few rhinestones

Black Glass
I add black sequins, squares, and stars
encapsulating with clear acrylic

If you like post like this please let me know or +1 this on google plus. Unfortunately I couldn't do sets to show you these products I hope the practice hands are cool. What to see future sets let me know!

Hope this help some of you roses!

Petals Falling Until Next Time!

xoxoxo Love you Guys!

Buying Cheap Resources for your College Courses.

With the act of making community college free in some areas of this country. Many of us are now being faced with the fact that college material doesn't provide all the information that we need to understand a particular topic better. Some of us (especially those who had to actually study at some point in our lives without the internet) rather do our researching through books and if your an online student like me sometimes the glare of the computer can get to you.

If your a (Post-Internet Learner) or You simply love books then Www.AbeBooks.com is for you! of course this is just to help some people out so here is my experience with Abe Books.

First, My mom being obsessed with cookbooks put me on to this method of shopping for books intelligently. She would spent hours at a time borrowing through this site where you could buy books at a cheaper price. Most of her recently brought cookbooks where 5 dollars and under. This didn't really interest me much until I started college and realized that I could get resources such as " Guide to Writing Sociology Papers" and "The Pursuit of Happiness" for under 5 dollars.

Abebooks.com isn't just for academic material the also have a large collections for every genre you could think of and unlike most sites you can definitely find something you want to read or always wanted to buy but didn't see your self parting away from $20.00 just for a day or two of reading.

Recently, I was cause in a delimma my online course material cost 

$92.00 and they recommended that I had purchased the hard copy that material for $82.00. I just simply couldn't see myself spending $200.00 (including taxes) for the online and hardcopy of the same exact material. With my knowledge of this site I copied the isbn # and found the same exact book on Www.AbeBooks.com for $3.45 but it was sold out so I looked at other site that offer affordable book deals like www.thriftbooks.com  and even Amazon have deals too it all in the matter of shopping around and shopping smart. Yes most of the material are second handed but when it come to college material who cares as long as its the same information and its in a good condition?

I really hope this helped my fellow college heads/ readers out there!

Love You Guys!xoxoxo!

Petals Falling Until Next Time!

Let It Flow! (Poetry Session)

Last Night

By: Empress Rose

Last Night, I had a dream about you and me.

It wasn't a fantasy like it use to be.

Running down the street.

Arms wide open.

As you confessed that it wasn't only me.

That you felt that this love was a mutual thing.

It was us standing close at a point in our lives.

Realizing that we misread each other eyes.

Mine screamed at you to DEPART!

Yours yelled at me HALT!

My mind fought with my heart.

Eyes could stand to see us apart.

You listened but I didn't.

Some how we found ourselves in front of each other.

Silence in between us as you stared at the pain you created.

Stripping down my feelings.

You were the cause of this illness, but instead of healing the pain.

You left my emotionally drained. 

Like a drug I would over dose on I still wanted more.

You left me feeling empty and sick from those withdrawals.

Last Night, I had and dream about you and me.

Despite the feeling of my heart falling in my chest.

I began to smile because your decision was the best.

I was happy.

Happy being where I wanted to be.

You seemed regretful  as you began to noticed that my smile wasn't one you gave to me.

You questioned me..

How could that be without me.

As you watch what would've been if you believed in me.

If you believed in us but you listened to your thoughts.

Someone came along and shower with love.

The kind of love that liberated me.

I didn't understand how he could but you couldn't cherish me. 

 It no longer matter as your face froze like plaster.

What a beautiful disaster.

Ending in my happily ever after.

Last Night, I had a dream about you and me.

We ran into each other.

You realized you mistakes to late.

You tried clear up the vain that you've made.

Didn't expect to find me in a good state.

Head High and GLOWING..

As another's love shined through me bright and golden.

Last Night, I had a dream about you and me..

I was someone else's QUEEN..

You were a lonely KING...

Not Your Grandma's Chicken and Pastries (Sunday Dinner Edition)

Not Your Grandma's Chicken and Pastries

Ingredients

• 2 pounds of chicken leg quarter (Dark Meat is the best for this dish)
• 2 Larger Onion Sliced
• Kosher Sea Salt
• Pepper (Cayenne, Black, and White
• Chicken bouillon
• Basil,  Thyme, Rosemary, and Orgeno
• 2 Cups of All Purpose Flour 
• 1 cup water
• Oil

Broth: In a bowl brine your leg quarters over night in salt water. Remove chicken and place in a large pot with a touch oil and slightly brown them on all sides. Slice your onion and add to the pot sautee for a few minutes before adding your pepper, herbs,chicken bouillon , and a touch of salt. Fill you pot to the rim with water and bringing it to a boil then letting it simmer for a about 2 to 3 hours ( over cooking the chicken would make it stringy, if thats how you get down by all mean forget about it as for me I rather have chucks of chicken in my broth) 

Pastries: In a large bowl add your flour and a pinch of salt. Whisk lightly, Add a teaspoon of oil and your water a splash at a time (make sure it's warm water, cold water makes the dough tough and har to work with) mix it until all the dry flour is combine and the dough is firm. Let it sit for 10 minutes under a dry clean cloth. On a floured surface began to knead yoyr dough about 50 times would do. Roll it out with a rolling pin to about a half of centimeter thick. Then cut the dough into long strips our squares. Store them in a floured container until ready for use.

Combine: Remove chicken from pot. Taste your broth and add salt if needed or water if needed. Remove chicken from the bones and add back into pot. Slowly drop the pasteries in a few at a time stirring so they won't stick. When the pasteries are tender they your done! You can add sweet peas just for a pop of color and a touch of sweetness. 

 Now it isn't the best looking meal in the world but lord it's good!

Reiligon v.s Public Schools

Religion vs Public Schools

In a country founded on religious freedom. The debate of having religion in our public schools has been the source of enormous conflict. This question dates back further than the 19^th century and is the foundation of many heated discussions that takes place in this day and age. The vast majority oppose the thought of religion being present in our public schools system. Relying on the section of “The First Amendment” of the US. Constitution. That states “Congress shall make no law respecting an establishment of religion, or prohibiting free exercise thereof”. This amendment also established “The Separation of Church and State” which is the political and legal doctrine that establishes that religious and government institutions should be kept separate and independent of one another. Many people questions the actual meaning of these documents predicting that when this amendment was created it wasn’t intended to be imposed so strictly. Some even raise contradictory questions about religious liberty in a pluralistic society (Congressional Digest, 1995).  Teaching religion in our public schools would be beneficial today when religious illiteracy is becoming a concern.  What better way can we teach the importance of respecting and appreciating diversity and instill moral values into those who would one day become our future leaders? Other than to include religion into our public school curriculum. After all religious lessons can encourage and promote moral conduct within students, act as and is a form of therapy, and teach children how to be more understanding of people and the world around them.

Over the years what have once been morally unacceptable is suddenly becoming what we consider normal. William Bennet (Former Secretary of Education) once stated in his cultured index that between the decades of 1960-1990 there have been a steady moral decline. In which during this time frame divorce, teenage pregnancy, teen suicide, child abuse, high violent crime and abortion have increased drastically (Eliassin, 2011). Although Mr. Bennet was speaking of the nation as a whole. Our children, preteens, and teenagers are being influenced by their peers and the highly sexualized media such as erotic novels, music videos, sitcoms, reality television shows, X-rated movies and gossip magazines. Many may agree that the way many of our youth presently conduct themselves is absurd, disgraceful and disrespectful. Which shows it’s affect within their academic lives. The Center of Disease Control and Prevention reported in 2007 that 5.9% of students carry weapons to school, 7.8% have been threatened and/or injured on campuses nationwide, 12.4 have been in physical fights on school grounds and that 5.3% of students no longer attend school because they don’t feel safe (Eliassin,2011). This illustrates the importance of teaching moral values at an early age. It is difficult to teach lessons on how to conduct ourselves morally without teaching about religion. Being that most of the strong moral beliefs originated from various religious practices. It’s almost like peanut butter and jelly they’re very few times where you can make a reference to one without making one to the other. Eliminating lessons about such topics out of our academic curriculum have left a gap open for an early acceptance of immoral behavior amongst our youth.

 Prayer and religion gives a sense of faith, hope, and peace within the individuals that incorporate them within their lives. This create a positive atmosphere even in hectic places and times. Prayer in itself is believed to have healing and therapeutic properties. Dr. Randolph Byrd discovered this when he conducted a study that shocked the world regarding prayer. Cardiologist Byrd studied 393 patients in a San Francisco Hospital coronary care unit. All of the participants suffered from similar conditions and symptoms. He randomly separated this group into two. One conducted with intercessory prayer and one without. When the study concluded Dr. Byrd found that there was an enormous difference in the quality of recovery, with those who received prayer based treatment than with those who didn’t. He also reported that those patients conducted with intercessory prayer were less likely to suffer a heart attack or heart disease (Byrd, 1988). Proving prayer can act as a source of strength to those who struggle with physical disorders.  In a study conducted in Rush University Medical Center in Chicago. Participating was a total of 136 adult patients diagnosed with major depression or bipolar depression. After admission these patients were surveyed for treatment using the standard instruments in social sciences for assessing intensity, severity and depth of disease and feelings of hopelessness and spiritual satisfaction. This study found that those with strong beliefs in a personal and a concerned God were more likely to experience an improvement. Patricia Murphy, PhD a Chaplin at Rush stated “In our study, the positive response to medication had little to do with the feeling of hope that typically accompanies spiritual belief, specifically it was tied to the belief that a Supreme Being existed and cared." (Rush University Medical Center, 2010)  These two studies illustrates that religion is indeed a form of therapy for various medical disorders. Which could decrease the number of children who struggle with suicidal thoughts, feelings of worthlessness, and urges to inflict harm to themselves and others. By creating a sense of self-worth and understanding that all life has a purpose, changes the level of acceptance within themselves and those around them.

The absence of knowledge based on religion can prevent children from understanding other cultures, tradition, and values of their peers. Muslim American after the attack on September, 11, 2001 faced increase hostility and negative stereotyping being expressed by a majority of society. Muslim immigrant more so than any other immigrants were faced with negative attitudes. These events have increased racial and religious animosity which left Arabs, Middle Easterners, Muslims, and those who bear a stereotyped physical resemblance to members of these groups, fearful of potential hatred and hostility from people of other cultures (Khan and Ecklund, 2012) This discrimination developed not only because of the tragedy on that day but because of inaccurate knowledge of these traditions and beliefs. Islamic individuals aren’t the only ones who face such discrimination.  Other religions have stereotypical views attached to them as well. Verifying that those who are ignorant to other cultures tend to identify them based on what is demonstrated in the media and the opinions of those around them. Most of the issues regarding untruthful judgement in this nation derive from the unfamiliarity with a person’s appearance, cultures, beliefs, and traditions. In teaching about different religions children would be able to mold their own opinions about diverse cultures.  In the 2005 study called The Bible Literacy Project only 10% of teenagers could name all 5 of the major religions and 15% couldn’t name any  (Laycock,2015). Demonstrating that not only will religious curriculum benefit children personally but academically and later on professionally as well. Our nation include people of various religions, languages, economic groups, and other cultural groups. In order to build communities that are able to improve conditions and resolve issues, we have to understand and appreciate our differences, form relationships with these individuals apart from our own culture, and build strong relations with one another. Teaching religion in our public school system would build and establish a foundation for understanding all religions.  Religious ideas have been known to affect politics, economics and law. In fact, Puritans of the 16^th and 17^th century broke away from The Church of England in pursuit of pure religion. They created a system where God was the most important aspect of life. Their ideas influenced New England colonies political, economic, and social development. The way power was separated by men and what they consider sinful behavior structured their politics and their ideas on trading shaped New England’s economics (The History Channel, 2009).

Although they’re various reasons why religion should be restored back into our public school. The majority think that it would be absurd and unconstitutional. Senator Lowell Weicker once stated “The mix of religion and politics is unhealthy and detrimental to our government”. He believed that accommodating prayer in school is just another burden that schools don’t need in a day filled with too many distraction already (Goldberg, 1996). There have also been various cases where religion in public schools have created major problems. (McCollum v. Board of Education (1947) was one of the earlier cases were the supreme court ruled against a law in Illinois that allowed religious instructors to enter public schools during the day for “Voluntary” worship and theological instruction. As a follow up to this case (Zorach v. Clauson1952) emerged when the idea of students leaving public school campus during the day for religious teachings offsite call “Release Time”. This idea was upheld by The Supreme court on a 6-3 vote (Boston, 2012).  However, after both of these cases prayer and/or bible studies where still active in public schools. Until the case of Engel v. Vitale (1962) which was the first in a series of cases where the court used the establishment cause to eliminate religious activity of all sorts which had been included in public ceremonies during that time. Justice Hugo Black wrote for the majority during this case stating “When the power, prestige and financial support of government is placed behind a particular religious belief, the indirect coercive pressure upon religious minorities prevailing officially approved religion is pain” (Congressional Digest) These are just a few oppositions to the thought of religion in public schools based on our judicial system. However, they are other reasons why people oppose religion in public schools. Discrimination being the most popular reasons why people cringe at the idea. Especially, with children being persecuted for their individual beliefs like high school student Jessica Ahlquist who was victimized for stick up for the “Separation of Church and State” doctrine. After winning a federal ruling last year in Rhode Island to remove a prayer banner from her public school. As a result of her victory in the courtroom she had to be escorted to school by police because of vicious threats of violence and retribution and later opt for private tutoring (Gaylor, 2014). Unwanted indoctrination is another popular reason as most parents want to have control of what is being taught to their children. Atheist parents don’t want their child having the possible indoctrination into any one of the many world religious beliefs and parents of one religious background find distaste in their child being taught about another, because of the fear that one religion would be taught as being more superior to the one they believe in.

Even though both sides of this topic have its valid reasons for their opinions. We must not forget that there was a time when religion was present in our public schools.  During those times there was less violence on school grounds and our youth carried themselves in a respectful manor. Many believe that removing religion out of our classrooms is the cause of the immoral decline in our youth. However, the vast majority still have similar views as the Supreme Court Justice in the state of Wisconsin who stated that “There is no such source and cause of strife, quarrel, fights, malignant opposition, persecution, and war, and all evil in the state, as religion. Let it once enter our civil affairs, our government would soon be destroyed. Let it once enter our common schools, they would be destroyed" (Gaylor, 2014). The question is; if done tastefully, how bad could teaching religion in public school be? After all, allowing prayer in public school could instill positive moral values, help alleviate violence, decrease in dropout rate, teenage pregnancy, a securer educational experience, and other societal problems (Congressional Digest, 1995). Especially, since we are living in a country where religion was so important that our currency and historical documentations make references to God.  I would like to end this with a quote from Pearl. S. Buck “The Story Bible”. “The scripture of any religion are fascinating and profound revelation of the struggle of the souls of men and women to find the source of their being and the causes of life and death”

Works Citied

• Gaylor, Annie Laurie. "The Dangers of Religious Instruction in Public Schools." Religion Politics.
• Laycock, Joseph. "If We Don’t Teach Religion in Schools, Americans Will Never Understand the Rest of the World." Quartz.
• Byrd, Randolph C. "Positive Therapeutic Effects of Intercessory Prayer in a Coronary Care Unit Population." Southern Medical Journal 81.7 (1988): 826-29. God and Science. Web.
• "Puritanism." History.com. Ed. Eric Foner and John A. Garraty. A&E Television Networks, 2009. Web. 15 Aug. 2015.
• Elinassin, Shedwin. "Moral Decline Due to Absence of School Prayer." FIUSM.COM.
• Boston, Rob. "5 Supreme Court Decisions Pandering to Christianity." Alternet. N.p., 24 Apr. 2012. Web.
• Goldberg, Mark F. "An Interview with Lowell Weicker: Education in the United States." The Phi Delta Kappan 77.8 (1996): n. pag. JSTOR.
• Rush University Medical Center. "Belief in a caring god improves response to medical treatment for depression, study finds." ScienceDaily. ScienceDaily, 24 February 2010
• Khan, Mussarat, and Kathryn Ecklund. "Journal of Muslim Mental Health." Attitudes Toward Muslim Americans Post-9/11. Michigan Publishing, 2012.

Let's Get Little Deep! ( Personal Talk)

Many people have seemed to have been annoyed with that fact that I seem to only talk about school lately. This actually bothers me because at one point these were the very same individuals who would bash me for "Not Doing Anything In My Life".

The reason why I talk about school so much is simply because it's honestly a testimony of mines. Every possible thing that would make anyone say "Eff It" happened. Some even left my so broken that I could see straight for awhile (figure of speech).

It got to the point were it was my student loans stopping me then after that.  Some destroy all of my academic documentation, certifications, and etc (This is were I became broken). I went through absolute hell trying to get that back countless letters and phone calls that lead no where.

This took place for three years straight (Other things took place during this time that were frequent but minor road blocks) I went through a period of absolute hatred simply because how could someone have been so evil to destroy something I worked so hard for and genuinely needed in order to move on to the next level in my life. Personally I didn't do anything to that person but simply because they felt like they were in some sort of power at that time they decided steal something so meaningful and play God by so call putting a restriction of how far I would go in life.

It was a struggle I went through years of not being able to do many things and the solution was always "If I was in school at least I could be working towards a better life" After finally obtain proof of credentials  ( Still haven't gotten proper copies) then I was the issue of not having computer or transportation to get to the community college.

It took a few months but the Lord. Made away without me settling for something less just to say I'm doing something. My mom and I found a computer at a reasonable price that we could pay off monthly.

When this year started something just told be it was time I called the previous schools I spoke to it was only a few (Did my research on what would be the prefect fit for me, keep in mind your investing in your future)  and The list was (University of Phoenix, Liberty University, and Southern New Hampshire University) each having it own single reason for being on that list Phoenix was somewhere recommended to me by my mother's old boss back when I was 18. Being a Doctor I trusted her insight.  Liberty hands down is a Christian College that's close enough for my to travel to for events in the future. SNHU was all I dreamed of as a college it's a non-profit, easy going, flexible, and their main goal is you achieving.

SNHU accepted me first and I rolled with the process everything happened so fast after that. (I was as if the Lord opened the door himself and said it's time for this to happen now) Moral of the story is everything happens in Gods time. It's hard you maybe struggling but when its his time he would give to you what he claim as yours.  Not mind to road blocks they would soon be removed. Recognize someone's testimony and keep the mind set that if he did it for them he'll do it for me too..

Hope this helped someone...

Love You Guys..

Petals Falling Until Next Time!!!xoxo!

Blog Update (What Ideas are in the Future)

So I have been running this blog for the past 7 months. Although I have taken a few breaks due to life this blog has been active in my opinion.

Lately, I have been thinking about making some changes to the organization of my content. Changes such as creating a separate blog for nail art and diy crafts once I get the all the materials to do so.

A review blog, don't really know if I'm going to link it on here or the separate blog being that most of my reviews would have something to do my projects.

Seems like some of you guys adore the relationship advice thinking about doing a spin off for that to or I just might keep it on here.

Finally, I'm thinking of doing a psychology and sociology spin off so some of you guys can learn these fascinated fields and disorders along with me.

Some of these changes would start to take place slowly, I am constantly studying, doing assignments, cooking, cleaning (or as someone once told me practicing for the role of a wife/mom) and by the end of the day blogging is the last thing on my mind (I'm trying to do better)

When should you look for these changes: God is willing the beginning of next year I would love to have at least a hand full of content on each one before I launch them.

What To Cook Wensday

Sweet Sriracha Salmon

Ingredients

·         Sriracha Sauce

·         Coarse Sea salt

·         1 ¼  pound of Salmon Fillets skin removed

·         1 large chopped Vidalia Onion

·         Garlic

·         Black pepper

·         2 table spoons of brown sugar

·         Olive Oil

·         Scallion

·         cilantro

Directions

Lightly season the salmon fillets with the sea salt and black pepper.  In a medium size pan add a few drops of olive oil and start the heat to a medium high. Wait a few minutes before placing your salmon fillets in your pan. Brown them on both sides then remove them. Place you chopped Vidalia onion and garlic and sautéed them until they are translucent. Place your salmon on top of the sautéed veggies and place a lid over the pan. Turn the heat down to a medium. In a separate bowl mix your sriracha and brown sugar in a bowl loosen it up with water and pour the mixture over the salmon and cook until it’s cooked all the way through. Can be garnished with scallions and cilantro then served.

Oven Directions

Preheat oven to 425 degrees, In a bowl whisk brown sugar, sriracha, salt, black pepper and water. Place salmon fillets in a lightly greased baking dish. Pour sriracha mixture on top cover with lid or aluminum foil. Roast until cooked through and flaky. About 15 minutes.  Can be garnished with scallion or cilantro, then served.

Serving tips

Pairs well with rice and steamed vegetables or on top of a salad.