Living Your Life For You!

Living Your Life For You!

They’re various things in life that can cause us hold back on ourselves. Our family’s opinion of how we should be, societal influences of what is considered a perfect life, and the progression of our peers.

We often feel as if something is wrong with us when other people expectations of our lives doesn’t match what living as who we are actually is.

I already wrote a blog about individuality but now I want to elaborate on the importance of being comfortable with your life not being like everyone else’s because I feel as if there’s a misconception of what we should be like during every stage of our lives.

For Example: Just because everyone is settling down and starting a family during their twenties doesn’t mean that your selfish or irresponsible because you aren’t.

I personally encounter this situation a lot people who literally look at me like “When are you going to have a baby” and judge me based off the fact that I respond with saying “I’m not ready yet, I want to first be able to stand completely on my own two feet before I bring a baby into this world”.

When did your life start to belong to someone else? I ask this question because people tend to judge you based off of their own lives. Just because your friend have a child they tend to low-key make you feel like it’s a negative thing because your don’t have one.

To be completely honest most of the people that judge your short comings aren’t very happy with the life they live. Someone who constantly call you out for always being the single friend. Is most likely in a relationship with someone who constantly cheats on them, disrespect them, or it simply just an unhappy union between two people

You have to discover the things that not only make you who you are but makes you happy about being who you are and indulge yourself in yourself.

For example: I love crafting and for years I haven’t been able to craft. I was going around here feeling empty for along time until I decided to buy a sketch book. That’s when I remembered  that craft and drawing have been apart of my life every since I could remember and without crafting I’m not being me. So now I’m planning on doing a craft haul in the near future so I can indulge in something that makes me feel good about being me.

You have to also realize that its better to do it the right way instead of rushing to do it because someone condemns you for not having it done.

What I mean by this is to Take your time, Invest in your life, and Practice for the life you envision yourself having.

Take Your Time

·         Fall in Love instead of having a lust filled relationship

·         Get that degree or those degrees

·         Work hard at your minimum waged job until you get something better

·         Take Public Transportation until you can afford a car

Invest In Your Life

·         Begin a Journey of Finding your inner peace

·         Eat better

·         Workout More

·         Stay as stress free as possible

·         Buy things that promote self-sufficiency

·         Constantly self-educate

·         Start looking into actual investments

·         Find ways to utilize your hobbies to generate actual income

Practice for the Life You Envision  

·         Become more organized

·         Cook more

·         Clean more

·         Say Affirmation (See Future Blog of Powerful Affirmations)

·         Stay positive

Life is way too short to let other people opinions keep you from enjoying the life that you have.

Hope This Helped Someone!

Love You Guys!xoxox!

Petals Falling Until Next Time…

Jayson- Chapter Six: Journey To The Past

Chapter Six: Journey to the Past

The sound of the rooster crowing is what woke her from her deep sleep. She couldn’t get what Ms. Effy told her yesterday. What could she have meant by something drastic was going to change in her life? She was wise in her age so one thing for sure was when Ms.Eff-lynn Blackwilt said something was going to happen you could bet your money on it.

“Tessa, would you stop day dreaming and get up, momma want us to go downtown and buy her them caramels she like so much” Lilly said standing her tall slender frame in the doorway with her hand on her wide hips.

Countessa rolled over and smothered her face into her pillow deeper. It was barely day break and their mother craving for sweets had already kicked in. Lilly grabbed her by the ankle and yanked her out of the bed. Being the first girl of the family she was made the boss of the house when their mother’s pregnancy caused her to become bedridden.

“If you hurry up we would have enough time to go to the lake and watch Trion and his friends fish” Lilly said knowing that Tessa would never pass up the chance to be around boys that they can actually look at. Being born in a household with 4 brothers a chance like this rarely came around.

…………………..

 It was mid-summer and the crops flourished well that year so there were plenty of field work for the young men in Roseboro to do. Countessa being the thicker one of the two sisters switched her body from left to right as they strolled passed fields upon fields of whistling men.

From their house to the 1 cent store down town was all of a hour long walk and wearing a corset in 98 degree weather added a few more hours to what had originally only been a two hour walk to and from.

“What’s the use of your having that magic in you and you don’t even use it, if I had mines I would’ve zapped and whole pot of caramel right the middle of our kitchen and gotten some more sleep” Countessa said spinning her sun umbrella behind her.

“I wanted to get out the house, that’s why I didn’t do that, plus momma on like the caramel Mrs. Jameson makes” Lilly said with a slight attitude.

“You’re lying you just want to see that crazy Trion, Lil, I really don’t understand what you see in him but he makes my skin crawl” Countessa shivered causing Lilly to fold her arm and sigh.

………………

Mrs. Jameson was the towns best baker she made all the cakes and muffins, but what the town loved the most about her was the fact that she gave free caramels to all the pregnant women in the town and no one made caramels like she made caramels.

“Good Morning, Mrs.Jameson!” the girls chimmed as they walked in.

“Good Morning, Countessa and Lilly, your mother had been over due from collecting her caramels, but I saved them over there in that bag plus there’s a few more in there for you girls” She said point to a standard brown paper bag with Wilson written cross in bold letters.

That’s when it happen Countessa saw him. Standing tall, with the complexion of honey,and piercing hazel green eyes.She could tell he was new to town or driving through because she never seen him before but it felt like she was looking at an old friend. Countessa froze and for the first time ever she noticed all her flaws.

“Who is that” She blurted out causing Mrs.Jameson to jump a litte.

“Oh, child that’s just the one of the Willowbrook boys, they just moved here from South Carolina” Mrs. Jameson replied with a smirk on her face “He’s handsome isn’t he” She asked looking at Countessa gazing at him like he was a diamond or a ruby.

“Um, Yes Mrs’ Jameson, I’m sorry for getting out of character like that” Countessa said suddenly feeling like she embrassed her mother.

“Don’t worry I acted the same way when I first laid eyes on Mr.Jameson, now get along girls before the boys leave the fish hole at the lake”. Mrs. Jameson then pushed them out the found door.

……………………..

“Oh my God, Tessa, how can you act like that over a boy you don’t even know” Lilly scolded as the began to argue down the street.

When Countessa remembered she forgot her sun umbrella at the bakery. She ran back bumping right into the mystery guy as he walked out of the shoe store next to Mrs.Jameson’s Shop.

She jumped back..

“I’m so sorry” She exclaimed noticing she had made him drop the hat he was holding in his hand.

“It’s no problem” he replied meeting her half way to pick it up. They stood in silence for a few minutes staring at one another.

“C’mon Tessa”! Lilly yelled breaking the trance the both of them where in. Suddenly, Tessa grew nervous. When he smiled at her.

“My name is Jayson, Jayson Willowbrook” he said stretching out his hand.

“I’m Countessa, Countessa Wilson, Welcome to Roseboro” she said shaking her hand with his.

“I hope to see you around, Countessa”

“My friends call me Tess, Tessy or Tessa pick your favorite”

……………

Azania jumped out of her sleep. She looked around shaking. What kind of a dream did she just have. She asked herself has she jumped out of bed and wandered into the kitchen.

The Blackwilt sibilings finally went home around 4:30 in the morning and it was now 6:00. She started pacing backwards and forth. When the light switched on making her jump.

“Damn Sina, you like to scared the shit outta me” she yelled clutching on to her chest.

“Want some Caramel” Sina said causing Azania to act hysterically.

Author's Note: Please forgive me you guys for any typos are mis-spelled words. I had a very tough week (Hench why I haven't been posting) and wanted to continue this story. I really hoped you like it and I will be revising all of my blogs within the next few weeks.

Love You Guys! XOXOXOX

Petals Falling Until Next Time.

Jayson: Chapter Five- The Story of Jayson

Chapter Five: The Story of Jayson

Sina switched her positon of the couch as she stared at the faces staring back at her.

“Sina, did you see him” Sapphire asked already knowing the answer. Azania stared at her sister waiting for her to respond.

“Yes, she saw him” Azania blurted out getting frustrated with Sina slowness.

“Zan!” Sina yelled then pouted her lips as if she was five years old and Azania snitch on her about stealing bubble gum from the corner store all over again.

“Hell, you were taking too long, but I remember when we first moved in this chick ran up to me screaming that there was some man in our house” Azania continued she wasn’t the type who keep things private. Especially, when it came to finding out information.

Maurice froze and looked around “That’s strange because he doesn’t show himself to people” he said pondering on way this time it was different.

Azania stood up, “Someone is gonna start fucking talking, yall round here hush talking and delaying the damn information and I’m dead ass getting fed the fuck up! She yelled as she put her hands on her hips.

Sina looked at her “Sit your ass down” She chuckled knowing that Azania was just have a temper tantrum because she wasn’t getting her way at the moment.

The Blackwilts chuckled too. Lighten the mood in the room causing Azania to sit down and fold her arms.

…………..

After few moments they all grew silent, Sapphire then stood up and walked to the window as if she was waiting for someone’s approval.

“Sina he’s name is Jayson” She said causing everyone to sit erected in their sits.

“He’s a living dead if you know what I mean” Sapphire continued

“You mean he’s a Ghost” Sina yelled placing her hands on her face.

“No he’s a vampire” Azania said causing the whole room to go in shock.

“How did you know” Maurice said staring at her puzzled.

“Wild guess” she laughed “Just seems to fit the mysteriousness of this whole situation” She said growing quiet once she realized that no one denied it.

“O FUCK, We’re really living here with a vampire” She yelled in excitement as if someone told her that her birthday was coming a few month earlier this year.

“Yess” Sapphire said lowing her voice. “I suppose you want to hear his story now” She continued as the Wilson sister shook their heads.

……………

“It all started in the back woods of South Carolina. This was during the time not to long after slavery and our people believed in our own power.  Jayson was one of the sons from the prominent Willowbrook Family. The story have been told that this family originated from Louisiana and moved to South Carolina because Mr. Willowbrook a warlock was a traveling sales man and he had more opportunities there.

Mrs. Willowbrook was one of us but instead of being a witch she was a voodoo priestess one of the best of the best. All the white people went to her she had the highest clientele of the richest people so they were pretty well off.

One day Mrs.Willowbrook was approached by the daughter of her past slave owner name Sara J. Wilson the owner who sold her brother away from her family when she was small. She refused to do any services for her.

“Wait Wilson” Sina said puzzled. Sapphire looked at her realizing that she had to explain the connection.

The Wilson’s where the largest slave owners in the south. Especially, in Louisiana. On the Wilson’s plantation there were tons of witches and voodoo priestess, but they figured it was easier to deal with slavery then the witch trails up north so they endured through it using their magic to inflict pain on their master’s family. Causing the crops not to grow so they wouldn’t have to work.

Sapphire spinned around “To confirm your questions they were our ancestors slave owners too”

Anyway, Sara Wilson later sent her brother to Mrs. Willowbrook and they raped her. As revenge she put a spell on the whole family to kill off all the men and even up until today not one male in this linage have been able to live past the age of 30. As her punishment they forced her to move to here with where they were others like her. When they moved the Willowbrooks, Blackwilts, Ravenbirds, and the Wilsons all became good friends. Together they would cast spells on the white folks in Lilith in order to feed their families.

That’s when Jayson met the Wilson sisters. Lilly was the oldest and Countessa. Lilly was in love with Trion…...

The back door flew open and everybody jumped.

“Sapphire stop” !!!! Maurice yelled.

“I’m afraid that we have said to much” Sapphire said sitting down.

“You haven’t said anything at all really” Sina said trying to convince Sapphire to tell more.

“I have, you wouldn’t understand that name would trigger Jayson’s wrath more than anything, if he wants you to know more he would show it to you”. Sapphire continued.

“How can he do that”? Sina asked becoming a little afraid.

“He’s the only Vampire Warlock that have ever existed”

……………….To Be Continued……………….

Questions to think about before next week:

Why is Jayson so upset when he hear the name Trion?
What do Lilly and Countessa have to do with Jayson?
How did Jayson become a Vampire?
What role do the characters that are in the present have to do with the characters that are in the past?
How would this story come together, because I know right now it doesn't make much sense?

For My Fellow Nail Art Enthusiast..

The Thing I’ve Learned Since I Became a Nail Art Enthusiast

I’m writing this because I know I’m not the only nail art enthusiast out there and some of my readers may find this information humorous or helpful. It’s a lot so feel free to skip to the topic your most interested about.  Anyways let’s get into it..

·         All nail files aren’t the same- You have your standard emory board with a 180 grit or higher that only softly files your nail. A 100 grit nail file is your best friend when trying to file your nail into the prefect shape.

·         Nail Polish or Gel Nail Polish- All nail polish aren’t the same.  Some have a cheap formula that chips within a couple of days. Some poorly formula polishes take more than two coats to achieve your desired opaqueness. (Hack Time) To make your nail polish last longer wait until your nail polish is dry and instead of using a standard top coat opt for a gel top coat. Gel Nail Polish like nail polishes there are the poorly formula ones and the ones that cost a lot but worth every penny. The best thing about gel polishes is the drying time. Being that your curing it with a uv or led light drying time could be from 30 seconds to 2 minutes( No more messed up manicures due to rest hands)  If you’re not about them coins when it comes to good nail and gel nail polishes then invest in a good gel base coat, gel top coat or builder gel to prolong the life of your manicure.

·         The deal with nail tips- I know you’re probably tired of hearing this but all nail tips aren’t the same. You have full tips, medium well tips, and no well tips. Full tips are for those girl who love doing their nails but not want to place too much on their natural nail. Most full tip nails leave a small space for your acrylic or gel to adhere to your natural nail and some are for us girls who are in a rush and want to glue our tips on and paint them and run out the house. Medium wells have a small space on the back of the tip I call it (The Glue Craddle) simply because that’s where I personally apply my glue before putting it on my natural nails this type of tip is the standard salon tip which rest directly on the free edge of your nails. No well tip are the tips that have no space in the back there’s absolutely no well at all and it to rests on the free edge of your nails these tips are many for the camouflaging of the fake nail tip and your natural nail.

·         The two kinds of nail forms- Yes, they’re two kinds the first kinds of nail forms. One is similar to a sticker that you place under your free edge and sculpt out a nail. These are for the ladies who are more advanced with nail constructing. Let me tell you I tried a nail form before and when I took the form off the whole tip of my nail came off with it.  The other type of nail forms resembles full well nail tips with a small little tabs around it and what you do with these is fill up the back with acrylic and press them on your natural prepped nails wait from them to dry and pop them off. These form are for us who want to do something quick or are still in our beginning stage with nail art.

·         Gel or Acrylic- Acrylic is the most common method used for nail construction mainly because in my opinion it’s the easiest and it isn’t even that easy. With acrylic you can shape your nail and file them into perfection (read on for the different types of acrylic. The down fall to acrylic is the smell(this was the reason I switched to gel). Gel is a pain in the butt. The beautiful thing about gel is it doesn’t dry until you cure it so you have time to play around with the shape of it. Also it has a very faint smell if any smell at all. However, gel tend to self level and getting a bomb/ elevated apex takes a lot of practice.

·         Types of Acrylic- Depending on the acrylic you buy it could be a dream or a nightmare. Your best bet is to look around for acrylic. Many sites won’t sell to you if you don’t have a license which makes most of us turn to amazon for acrylic. Be careful some of the acrylic from china that’s on amazon is pure trash. It dries quicker, the constancy isn’t right and the smell is way too strong. There are some places on the internet that would sell to you if you don’t have a license so look for them and compare prices most starter kits are $50 dollars and in those kits you may receive a clear acrylic powder, a pink acrylic powder, a white acrylic powder, a #8 acrylic brush, acrylic liquid, and a bonder. Read the acrylic formula your purchasing some dry faster than others which could be a good thing if you’re an advance nail diva and others may take more time for the many of us that aren’t that advance.

·         China becomes your best friend- Altough the acrylic from china maybe trash. Everything else it pretty much ok. Nail art brushes are half the price when they are coming from over seas. So is the glitter, alloys, rhinestones, cabochons, 3D nail art, nail plates, stampers, and the list goes on! Mostly used sites for nail art are Banggood.com, Born Pretty Store.com, and Ebay. Remember to utilize YouTube for reviews on costlier products from these sites before purchasing them. Also keep in mind that if you order from overseas on today you most likely wouldn’t be able to hold your order in your hands until next month this time. The wait is a killer so plan ahead if your thinking about a special nail design for a special day. You may also be able to find some of these overseas product on ebay coming from a seller who located in the states but where a pack of 12 100 grit nail files cost $5.00 coming from china they cost $15.00 coming from Florida.

·         The art of 3D Acrylic designs: This by far is the one reason I wish I could play with acrylic all day long. Acrylic 3D designs are a huge craze these days. The secret to having a prefect flower or etc. Is to wait until the acrylic turns matte before sculpting them out.

·         Anything can become nail art- When I say anything I mean almost anything. Dried flowers, acrylic paint, sharpies, highlighters,  sticker, pieces of broken jewelry, and the list goes on.

·         Neon Color/Ombre Color Hack: Instead of apply way to many of anything that’s neon, or sponging on to many coat of ombre colors. First paint your nails with a white base it could be nail polish, acrylic paint, or white gel polish (don’t forget to wait until each is completely dried before proceeding to the next step.

·         No nail polish? – You can use acrylic paint as nail polish as long as you have a good top coat you’re good to go. Plus acrylic paint is a lot cheaper then nail polish. At Walmart it’s literally 55 cent per 2oz bottle. You can also use your old eyeshadow as nail color just simply apply a white based and grab you a used make brush and brush away.

I have so much more where this comes from so if you like nail art education. Either let me know personally through my email. Message me on google plus or leave a comment.

Love You Guys! XOXOXO

Petals Falling Until Next Time!!!

Embrace Your Individuality

Embracing Your Individuality

I’ve been pondering over this topic for weeks. Wondering if this is something I really felt needed to be addressed. I came the conclusion that it is an important topic because I notice that a lot of people struggle with embracing their individuality.

I know it sounds crazy but society I have promoted certain standards for decades and even centuries and some people struggle to embracing their own personal likes and dislike because of these standards.

For Example: Who created the standard of what is black and what is white?

Just because the majority of the people that shares the same race as you love to listen to hip hop and r&b. Doesn’t make you less black because you love country and rock.

You have to stop trying to fit into a box of what is considered “normal”, because in all actuality what is considered normal today. Would be labeled abnormal or outdated tomorrow.

It is perfectly okay to admit the you love things that most people don’t understand.

For Example: I personally love darker hues of every color (Violet, Black Blue, Emerald and etc) and most likely you would catch me wearing most black and grays. I just happen to like these things but I’m in no way gothic or emo.

We are all made differently from one another. Yet, we define ourselves based on similarity.

For Example: “Oh we are both 25 years old and she still reads manga, how childish?”

Embrace, your difference and never be ashamed of admitting what you like as a person. These are the things that make us who we are and anyone who can’t accept that. Doesn’t accept you..

I really hoped this help someone…

Love You Guys! XOXOXOX

Petals Falling Until Next Time…

Jayson: Chapter Four: Aftermath of the Gate

Chapter Four: Aftermath of the Gate

 Azania trembled at the sight before her eyes. An old picture of a woman wrapped in the arms of a mysterious young man. The woman wore a dress that seem to mimic those of the late 1800’s and the fedora and suit that the young man wore is what really personified the era of which this picture was taken. 

The picture hung in the walk way of what seems to be an entrance to a house, or room of some sort hidden further back in the rose garden.

Azania froze when she saw what the others saw. The woman in the picture had her face, her stature, and her eyes were so life like it felt like she was staring into her own soul.

“Who is this” She ask the Blackwilt siblings hoping they knew the answer.

“This is our first time seeing the picture” Emerald said in total shock.

Sina looked at her with the look of disbelief on her face.

“Well let’s open the other door and maybe we can find some clues” Sina said making the only logical conclusion out of the group.

Maurice ran in front blocking them. “We should save that for another day I think we have all seen enough for one night”.

Sapphire and Abigail didn’t hesitate to turn around and head back to the house. Azania and Sina stared at one another in complete silence.

Back in the house Sina tried to lighten to mood by showing pictures of them when they were younger. She came across a picture of her and Uche when they first started dating and started to turn pale in the face.

Sapphire grabbed the picture out of her hand and she froze. Emerald grabbed the picture from her sister’s hand and started to tremble. Causing Maurice to follow suit upon glancing at what they saw.

Azania crossed her legs as she watched these people who were strangers a few hours ago behave as if they knew more about their life then they did.

“Do ya’ll know him” Azania asked as she she shifted positions on her vintage styled couch.

Penelope being the only one of her siblings who managed to keep her composure shrugged her shoulders. Abigail slammed the picture on the glass coffee table and walked torwards the window. Maurice stood up and started pacing.

“It’s obvious that ya’ll know some shit and your not telling us”. Sina said motioning towards the kitchen and pouring a nice little mixture of White Gin and Cranapple juice.

“You Fuckers are stressing me out” Sina continue when she returned to the living room. Azania had her arms crossed as she sported her infamous bitch face.

Sapphire stood up.

“Fuck this shit it’s only right that we tell them” She said looking at the rest of the Blackwilts.

“We can’t. remember they have to find these things out for themselves” Emerald said with the look of pitty written on her face.

“Have it every occurred to you that maybe this is the reason we met them today”? Sapphire continued to provide a reason to spill the tea.

“Sap is right” Maurice being the only Blackwilt male left agreed with his younger sister.

“I mean how else are they supposed to find out” Abigal said in agreement.

Sapphire put her hand on her hip.

“Okay we’ll tell them”. She said after letting out a big sigh.

The Blackwilt sibling all sat down and looked at each other waiting to see who would start. When Penelope held her chest and begin to speak.

“Have you seen him”? She asked and instantly Sina froze.

To Be Continued…….

Questions to think about before next week.

Why did the Uche’s picture change the mood for the Blackwilt siblings?

Quick Update

Hey, you guys I know it has been awhile but I feel like it’s time for a quick update. 2016 has been treating pretty while so far but I have been dealing with somethings on an emotional level. I’m guessing maybe I have set many goals for myself this year that I kind of forgot to incorporate God and his will for my life into the mix. It’s a little overwhelming.

Lately, I have been viewing things a little bit differently. I don’t know rather it’s just a level of becoming a spiritual person or age and maturity. It’s almost as if rose colored glasses have been removed from my eyes and I see things a little bit more clearly.

I’m still in school and as a matter of fact this term would mark the beginning of my second year which I am very proud of because as a little girl I always wanted to be a thriving college student. A dream that faded when I got in my teens and other things started to matter more to me then my dream career.

Will I Still Be Blogging? Definitely!

School have been my main priority over the past few months as I tackled one of the most difficult courses I have faced so far. I’m currently looking for fun, informative, and laid back material that actually matters to you guys. That doesn’t involved gossip (There’s a million and one outlets for that category).

Many of you may know that I’m a private person to a certain degree and I’m not going to disclose too much. However, I felt like you guys deserved an update of some sort. Many of you guys simply just need to know I’m not giving up on something I want like having a voice and a platform that is mines to share my views, my likes, and creativity.

Love You Guys!!! XOXOXO!

Petals Falling Til Next Time!