Monday, July 4, 2016

Jayson: Chapter Seven: A Bag and A Bad Man..

Azania stood in front of the bag of caramels that mimicked the one in her dream. The name Wilson was written on it’s side so big and so bold she couldn’t fathom whether she was dreaming or not.
“Why you acting so damn funny” Sina yelled as she looked at her sister staring in shock.
“It’s just that I had a dream about caramels in a bag just like this” Azania said before sitting down without moving her gaze off of the bag. When the door bell rung causing both of the sisters to jump.
“It early as hell in the morning who the fuck could that be” Azania yelled before grabbing her stun gun and heading towards the door. She looked out the window and froze when she saw Uche standing there along side with Marion. Although she was extremely happy to see her first love it was too many questions that came along with their appearance on their door step.
She slowly backed away from the door and ran into the room with Sina.
“It’s time for you to tell me what happened back home, why you decided to run away from the life we had there and are your completely safe being here”. Azania said.
“Why, who’s at the door”. Sina said in a whisper.
“Tell, Me what the fuck happened or I’m going to open that door and let Uche tell me” Azania yelled.
Sina ran upstairs pulling her sister behind her.
“Okay, I’m going to tell you everything”. Sina said sitting down on her bed and looking out the window down at Uche’s tall muscular frame. She still loved him and it took every part of her strength to prevent her from running out to him.
“Bitch I’m waiting” Azania said folding her arms, because her first instinct was to let Marion in her heart still begged for him even though he treated her so badly their love was bitter sweet when the times were good they was the most memorable but when they were bad it was like being in love with satan himself.
Sina looked at her with tears running down her face.
“What you don’t know about Uche and I is he use to beat on me and rape me” Sina’s words seemed to echo in the room. Azania jaws started to clinch as she waited for her sister to finished what she was saying.
“The last time, you know before we left, I told him that I was going to have our baby and he figured that he didn’t want it and decided to beat it out of me. He did everything possible for me to miscarriage. Threw me down the stairs, stomped on my stomach, he’s too strong for me to fight back so I was helpless” Sina continued without even noticing that Azania had already jumped up and ran to the door.
She wasn’t afraid of to much of anything. Especially, not some bitch made nigga.
“What the fuck do you want”!!! She yelled as she swung the door open punching Uche in the face.
Holding his jaw Uche laughed.  
“You like to beat on women so fight me pussy, FIGHT ME”!!! Azania yelled as she begins to push him
“Zani, don’t make me fuck yah little ass up, just get the fuck out of the way so I can talk to Sina” His deep voice said in a manner of trying to intimidate her.
“You gunna fuck who up? I want you to lay your filthy fucking hands on me bitch” Azania yelled in his as she pressed her body up against him. When Marion grabbed her pulling her off Uche.
“Man go do what you gotta do I got her and she isn’t going nowhere”. He said wrapping his arms around her squeezing her tightly.
“Mari, so you a bitch ass nigga too huh” She said swarming to get a loose as feeling weaker with every step Uche took towards the door.
She began scratching Marions arms and using her body weight to push him over the railing of the front poach stair case.
 When she saw the gate opened she froze at the sight of it when it closed with a loud bang.  Uche froze in his steps and Marion grip loosen. Azania stood in shock when she realized that they were really frozen in their spots.
“Zania, I don’t know what happening but get your ass in her before it wears off” Sina yelled opening the door.
Azania slipped out of Marion’s arm and ran in the house when a bright light shined through the door. They looked out at Uche and Marion kneeling down as if they were pleading with something. Before they ran to their car and speeded off.
“What the fuck just happened” Azania said as she looked at Sina who shrugged her shoulders.
To Be Continued…




Tuesday, June 14, 2016

The Effects Of Early Childhood Abuse On Development


The Effects of Early Childhood Abuse on Development



Abstract

“The Effects of Early Childhood Abuse on Development,” This paper would briefly explain the developmental aspect of young children and how abusive experiences can alter the overall development of young victims. With the utilization of scholarly resources and peer review studies. This paper would highlight some of the theories of abuse, the history of childhood abuse, and the outcome of experiencing abusive situations. In using information regarding this topic, this paper would highlight how abuse can alter human development and lead to chronic illnesses and death.




The Effects of Early Childhood Abuse on Development

Early childhood maltreatment is an on-going epidemic within our society. Nearly, 8,000,000 cases of child abuse are documented every year. Excluding the cases that haven’t been reported to the authorities (Friedman, 2010). Unlike abuse in other stages of development, early childhood abuse is detrimental to the development of children between the ages of 1-6 years old. Statistics have shown that during these ages, a child is more likely to be victimized as compared to older children and adolescents (Kolk, 2005). The disturbing nature of these statistics have fueled many theories regarding the aftermath of traumatic experiences.  One theory being “The Intergenerational Transmission Theory” which proposes that individuals who are victims of abuse or have witnessed abuse in people who are close to them develops an abnormal perception of violence and are more likely to be involved in abusive relationship later on in life (Alexander, 2009). A study shows that two out of three women who have been abused as a child suffers from “Intimate Partner Violence” than those who have not experienced abuse (Alexander, 2009). Another theory is “The Mimetic Theory” where a victim may admire the actions of a perpetrator or perpetrators and view them as being vigorous and powerful. This theory suggests that those victims learn to imitate the aggression of their abusers and act violent themselves as they grow to believe that it makes them compelling (Craig & Sprang, 2007).  An additional theory is “The Family Systems Theory” which unlike “The Intergenerational Transmission Theory” and “The Mimetic Theory” focus on how familial stressors can contribute to childhood abuse. This theory claims that families struggling with severe life stressors such as chronic illness, unemployment, financial problems, and relational problems within the family have a higher rate of childhood maltreatment than families without such stressors (Crosson-Towner,2005). Apart from scientific research and theories, our society view early childhood abuse as undesirable and needs to be eradicated. Based off of these views, there are currently government programs that specializes in the protection of children. One of the most popular programs is “The Department of Family and Protective Services” better known as “DFPS”. However, early childhood abuse was not always viewed in this manner, before 1875 there weren’t any organization dedicated to the protection of children and as a result many children went without defense. Also during this period in history our society had the belief of letting caregivers discipline children anyway they choose (Myers, 2008). There are many outside influences that contributes to maltreatment. Forces such as economic struggles, poor environments, education and etc, which could be linked to the occurrence of abuse in young children. These risk factors also change the development of a child in many ways. In order for us to have a full understanding of how early childhood abuse can have lingering effects into adulthood. We have to first identify the important developmental factors during this stage, how ill-treatment throughout early childhood can impact this development and how these effects correlate to chronic illnesses and disorders.

 Early childhood is the stage in development where a child begins to connect to the outside world. Physically this is the stage where they start to increase in height and weight. Cognitively this is the stage where they start to use words and actions to describe the things around them. Emotionally, this is the stage were a child will begin to comprehend the emotions they are feelings (Santrock,2013). During this stage a child is able to express his/her feelings towards negative and positive situations and develop a sense of pride, embarrassment, and shame. As their emotional awareness increases they begin to rely on their attachments with others (Santrock,2013). Unhealthy attachments during this stage may lead to the development of other problems such as maladaptive self-development, deficient peer relationships, and educational difficulties later on in their lives (Friedman, 2010). Studies have shown that neglected/abused children have a hard time with coping skills, emotional regulation and are often times confused by the reactions of others. The University of Rochester located in New York, conducted a study of maltreated and non-maltreated preschoolers. Researchers found that every category of abuse showed more signs of dissociative behaviors than non-abused children. Which brought the discovery of a connection between maltreatment/abuse and the symptomology and chronicity of this sort of behavior (Friedman, 2010). Another study tested the similarity between maltreated human children and rhesus monkeys. Researchers in this study have found that most female monkeys that were separated from their mothers during birth suffered from abnormal social interaction skills. These monkeys also develop a neglectful tendency towards their first-born babies. Like these monkeys they discovered that children who experience abuse or neglect have a negative perception of themselves and others. Which resulted in them having a negative view of the social world and social interactions (Friedman, 2010). 

                        Environments and experiences both impact early human development rather it’s the development of the brain or the development of prosocial behavior. The effects of both factors normally starts in the prenatal period and carries throughout early childhood (Shonoff, Phillps, 2000). The expected growth of children is based on dependable relationships and it’s the responsibility of caregivers to provide love, security, encouragement responsive interactions and safe environments to aid them during this developmental stage. Nevertheless, statistics have shown, the majority of early childhood traumatic experiences happens within the home of the victim and the majority of the perpetrators are their own parental units. In fact, parents and caregivers have an enormous portion to do with the victimization of young children. According to a study conducted in 2005, 79.4% of child abusers are the parents and the second largest group of perpetrators are unmarried partners. Nearly 40% of child abusers is the mother of the victim and 17.3% of children have been abused by both parents (Babbel, 2011). The reason why parents tend to abuse their children varies from being a victim of abuse themselves, having a lack of knowledge on how to discipline their child, being overly stressed, and dealing with feelings of failure. However, the most prominent cause of parental abuse is substance abuse. According to Columbia University’s National Center on Addiction and Substance Abuse, 70% of all cases involving childhood maltreatment is a result of drug addiction (Babbel, 2011). Which can alter the typical expectancy of children in this developmental stage. According to Piaget’s theory of development, early childhood is known as the preoperational stage, when children are expected to form stable concepts and begin to reason (Santrock,2013). Research have shown that for child victims of maltreatment it is harder for them to reason properly and develop secure relationships later on (Kolk, 2005). In extreme cases of early childhood abuse and neglect you can find evidence of developmental alteration involving feral children like Genie Whitley. Who suffered from extreme isolation as a young child, prior to being found at the age of 13. After being discovered, she possessed many developmental problems such as animalistic behavior, had a lack of emotional reactions, and was slow to develop connections with those around her (Curtiss, Fromkin, Krahsen, Rigler, 1974).

 These life experiences can not only delay the progression of development but, can be connected with poor decision making and chronic behavioral and physical illnesses. One study has found direct relations between childhood maltreatment, and their effects would be “The Adverse Childhood Experiences Study” or “The ACE Study”. In this study they labeled childhood abuse, neglect, and exposure to other traumatic stressors as adverse childhood experiences. In studying 17,421 members of the Kasier health plan in San Diego, California researchers have found that these adverse life experiences are more common than we may think. Nearly, 86% of the participants experienced household dysfunction, 60% experienced abuse, and 25% experienced some form of neglect (Anda). According to Dr. Bruce Perry, our brain develops specific signals at specific times. During critical period our brains are sensitive to our environmental input, including traumatic experiences (Anda). Adverse childhood experiences affect different brain functions, which can cause multiple problems in various medical and social domains. Results of these effects is a person developing depression, hallucinations, severe obesity, sleep disturbance, smoking, drug addiction, early intercourse, sexual promiscuity, high stress and problems controlling anger (Anda). The effects of a person developing these disorders can also relate to chronic illness such as sexually transmitted diseases, heart disease, liver disease, suicide which can all correlate to death. This provides enough evidence to support the theory that early childhood abuse and maltreatment can lead to serious problems later on in a person’s life.

In conclusion, it is crucial that the effects of childhood abuse should be understood from every angle. Many problems, individuals within our society are struggling with can be connected to childhood experiences. Whether, the experiences have to do with enduring verbal, physical, mental, emotional, sexual abuse, or even witnessing horrific events as a child. These experiences shape the way a person think, act, and their overall well-being.  As quoted by Kimberly Friedman “Many individuals who experience maltreatment such as neglect or abuse are significantly affected beyond childhood and adolescence; there is a significant relationship between child abuse and psychological disorders in adulthood (Friedman 2010).” Currently they’re many programs such as the “Childhood Prevention and Treatment Act”. Which is a government legislation that specializes in the protection of children. This act has paved the way for other early childhood abuse prevention programs, such as the “National Association of Early Childhood Education”. Who work hands on with professionals to create early prevention polices for children. Both programs have created their whole existence on the prevention of childhood abuse. However, scholars are still researching, observing, and creating studies. That would continue to underline the importance of eradicating early childhood maltreatment.




References

Friedman, K. (2010). Early Childhood Abuse and Neglect: Exploring the consequences, effects, and treatment. 1-25. doi:10.1075/ps.5.3.02chi.audio.2f

Anda, R. F. (n.d.). The wide-ranging health and social impact of adverse childhood. PsycEXTRA Dataset, 1-20. doi:10.1037/e608922012-003

Babbel, S. (2005, May 06). Who Are the Perpetrators of Child Abuse? Retrieved May 22, 2016, from https://www.psychologytoday.com/blog/somatic-psychology/201105/who-are-the-perpetrators-child-abuse

Alexander, P. (2009). Childhood trauma, attachment, and abuse by multiple partners.

Craig, C. and Sprang, G. (2007). Trauma exposure and child abuse potential: Investigating the cycle of violence. American Journal of Orthopsychiatry, 77(2), 296-305.

Crosson-Towner, C. (2005). Understanding child abuse and neglect. Boston: Allyn & Bacon.

Curtiss, S., Fromkin, V., Krashen, S., Rigler, D., & Rigler, M. (1974). The Linguistic Development of Genie. Language, 50(3), 528. doi:10.2307/412222

Meyers, J. (2008, January 1). A Short History of Child Protection in America. Retrieved April 12, 2015, from http://www.americanbar.org/content/dam/aba/publishing/insights_law_society/

Santrock, J.W. (2013). A topical approach to life-span development (7th ed.). McGraw-Hill Publishing  Company




 Note From Author

Hello you guys I just wanted to share with you what I wrote for my final paper in my last term. I figured that this topic was very important in the sense that people aren't aware of the full on effects of childhood abuse. Normally I don't post my citations but this time I felt that it was important to do so incase you guys were interested in doing your own research .

Really, hope that my sleepless/ caffeine induced nights of writing this paper can be of help to someone in away of educating themselves or dealing with a child that have experienced abused.

As always, I Love You Guys! XOXOX!

Petals Falling Until Next Time!


Monday, June 13, 2016

Living Your Life For You!


Living Your Life For You!

They’re various things in life that can cause us hold back on ourselves. Our family’s opinion of how we should be, societal influences of what is considered a perfect life, and the progression of our peers.

We often feel as if something is wrong with us when other people expectations of our lives doesn’t match what living as who we are actually is.

I already wrote a blog about individuality but now I want to elaborate on the importance of being comfortable with your life not being like everyone else’s because I feel as if there’s a misconception of what we should be like during every stage of our lives.

For Example: Just because everyone is settling down and starting a family during their twenties doesn’t mean that your selfish or irresponsible because you aren’t.

I personally encounter this situation a lot people who literally look at me like “When are you going to have a baby” and judge me based off the fact that I respond with saying “I’m not ready yet, I want to first be able to stand completely on my own two feet before I bring a baby into this world”.

When did your life start to belong to someone else? I ask this question because people tend to judge you based off of their own lives. Just because your friend have a child they tend to low-key make you feel like it’s a negative thing because your don’t have one.

To be completely honest most of the people that judge your short comings aren’t very happy with the life they live. Someone who constantly call you out for always being the single friend. Is most likely in a relationship with someone who constantly cheats on them, disrespect them, or it simply just an unhappy union between two people

You have to discover the things that not only make you who you are but makes you happy about being who you are and indulge yourself in yourself.

For example: I love crafting and for years I haven’t been able to craft. I was going around here feeling empty for along time until I decided to buy a sketch book. That’s when I remembered  that craft and drawing have been apart of my life every since I could remember and without crafting I’m not being me. So now I’m planning on doing a craft haul in the near future so I can indulge in something that makes me feel good about being me.

You have to also realize that its better to do it the right way instead of rushing to do it because someone condemns you for not having it done.

What I mean by this is to Take your time, Invest in your life, and Practice for the life you envision yourself having.

Take Your Time

·         Fall in Love instead of having a lust filled relationship

·         Get that degree or those degrees

·         Work hard at your minimum waged job until you get something better

·         Take Public Transportation until you can afford a car

Invest In Your Life

·         Begin a Journey of Finding your inner peace

·         Eat better

·         Workout More

·         Stay as stress free as possible

·         Buy things that promote self-sufficiency

·         Constantly self-educate

·         Start looking into actual investments

·         Find ways to utilize your hobbies to generate actual income

Practice for the Life You Envision  

·         Become more organized

·         Cook more

·         Clean more

·         Say Affirmation (See Future Blog of Powerful Affirmations)

·         Stay positive





Life is way too short to let other people opinions keep you from enjoying the life that you have.



Hope This Helped Someone!

Love You Guys!xoxox!

Petals Falling Until Next Time…

Sunday, May 1, 2016

Jayson- Chapter Six: Journey To The Past


Chapter Six: Journey to the Past


The sound of the rooster crowing is what woke her from her deep sleep. She couldn’t get what Ms. Effy told her yesterday. What could she have meant by something drastic was going to change in her life? She was wise in her age so one thing for sure was when Ms.Eff-lynn Blackwilt said something was going to happen you could bet your money on it.

“Tessa, would you stop day dreaming and get up, momma want us to go downtown and buy her them caramels she like so much” Lilly said standing her tall slender frame in the doorway with her hand on her wide hips.

Countessa rolled over and smothered her face into her pillow deeper. It was barely day break and their mother craving for sweets had already kicked in. Lilly grabbed her by the ankle and yanked her out of the bed. Being the first girl of the family she was made the boss of the house when their mother’s pregnancy caused her to become bedridden.

“If you hurry up we would have enough time to go to the lake and watch Trion and his friends fish” Lilly said knowing that Tessa would never pass up the chance to be around boys that they can actually look at. Being born in a household with 4 brothers a chance like this rarely came around.

…………………..

 It was mid-summer and the crops flourished well that year so there were plenty of field work for the young men in Roseboro to do. Countessa being the thicker one of the two sisters switched her body from left to right as they strolled passed fields upon fields of whistling men.

From their house to the 1 cent store down town was all of a hour long walk and wearing a corset in 98 degree weather added a few more hours to what had originally only been a two hour walk to and from.

“What’s the use of your having that magic in you and you don’t even use it, if I had mines I would’ve zapped and whole pot of caramel right the middle of our kitchen and gotten some more sleep” Countessa said spinning her sun umbrella behind her.

“I wanted to get out the house, that’s why I didn’t do that, plus momma on like the caramel Mrs. Jameson makes” Lilly said with a slight attitude.

“You’re lying you just want to see that crazy Trion, Lil, I really don’t understand what you see in him but he makes my skin crawl” Countessa shivered causing Lilly to fold her arm and sigh.

………………

Mrs. Jameson was the towns best baker she made all the cakes and muffins, but what the town loved the most about her was the fact that she gave free caramels to all the pregnant women in the town and no one made caramels like she made caramels.

“Good Morning, Mrs.Jameson!” the girls chimmed as they walked in.

“Good Morning, Countessa and Lilly, your mother had been over due from collecting her caramels, but I saved them over there in that bag plus there’s a few more in there for you girls” She said point to a standard brown paper bag with Wilson written cross in bold letters.

That’s when it happen Countessa saw him. Standing tall, with the complexion of honey,and piercing hazel green eyes.She could tell he was new to town or driving through because she never seen him before but it felt like she was looking at an old friend. Countessa froze and for the first time ever she noticed all her flaws.

“Who is that” She blurted out causing Mrs.Jameson to jump a litte.

“Oh, child that’s just the one of the Willowbrook boys, they just moved here from South Carolina” Mrs. Jameson replied with a smirk on her face “He’s handsome isn’t he” She asked looking at Countessa gazing at him like he was a diamond or a ruby.

“Um, Yes Mrs’ Jameson, I’m sorry for getting out of character like that” Countessa said suddenly feeling like she embrassed her mother.

“Don’t worry I acted the same way when I first laid eyes on Mr.Jameson, now get along girls before the boys leave the fish hole at the lake”. Mrs. Jameson then pushed them out the found door.

……………………..

“Oh my God, Tessa, how can you act like that over a boy you don’t even know” Lilly scolded as the began to argue down the street.

When Countessa remembered she forgot her sun umbrella at the bakery. She ran back bumping right into the mystery guy as he walked out of the shoe store next to Mrs.Jameson’s Shop.

She jumped back..

“I’m so sorry” She exclaimed noticing she had made him drop the hat he was holding in his hand.

“It’s no problem” he replied meeting her half way to pick it up. They stood in silence for a few minutes staring at one another.

“C’mon Tessa”! Lilly yelled breaking the trance the both of them where in. Suddenly, Tessa grew nervous. When he smiled at her.

“My name is Jayson, Jayson Willowbrook” he said stretching out his hand.

“I’m Countessa, Countessa Wilson, Welcome to Roseboro” she said shaking her hand with his.

“I hope to see you around, Countessa”

“My friends call me Tess, Tessy or Tessa pick your favorite”

……………

Azania jumped out of her sleep. She looked around shaking. What kind of a dream did she just have. She asked herself has she jumped out of bed and wandered into the kitchen.

The Blackwilt sibilings finally went home around 4:30 in the morning and it was now 6:00. She started pacing backwards and forth. When the light switched on making her jump.

“Damn Sina, you like to scared the shit outta me” she yelled clutching on to her chest.

“Want some Caramel” Sina said causing Azania to act hysterically.





Author's Note: Please forgive me you guys for any typos are mis-spelled words. I had a very tough week (Hench why I haven't been posting) and wanted to continue this story. I really hoped you like it and I will be revising all of my blogs within the next few weeks.

Love You Guys! XOXOXOX

Petals Falling Until Next Time.

Sunday, April 24, 2016

Jayson: Chapter Five- The Story of Jayson


Chapter Five: The Story of Jayson



Sina switched her positon of the couch as she stared at the faces staring back at her.

“Sina, did you see him” Sapphire asked already knowing the answer. Azania stared at her sister waiting for her to respond.

“Yes, she saw him” Azania blurted out getting frustrated with Sina slowness.

“Zan!” Sina yelled then pouted her lips as if she was five years old and Azania snitch on her about stealing bubble gum from the corner store all over again.

“Hell, you were taking too long, but I remember when we first moved in this chick ran up to me screaming that there was some man in our house” Azania continued she wasn’t the type who keep things private. Especially, when it came to finding out information.

Maurice froze and looked around “That’s strange because he doesn’t show himself to people” he said pondering on way this time it was different.

Azania stood up, “Someone is gonna start fucking talking, yall round here hush talking and delaying the damn information and I’m dead ass getting fed the fuck up! She yelled as she put her hands on her hips.

Sina looked at her “Sit your ass down” She chuckled knowing that Azania was just have a temper tantrum because she wasn’t getting her way at the moment.

The Blackwilts chuckled too. Lighten the mood in the room causing Azania to sit down and fold her arms.

…………..

After few moments they all grew silent, Sapphire then stood up and walked to the window as if she was waiting for someone’s approval.

“Sina he’s name is Jayson” She said causing everyone to sit erected in their sits.

“He’s a living dead if you know what I mean” Sapphire continued

“You mean he’s a Ghost” Sina yelled placing her hands on her face.

“No he’s a vampire” Azania said causing the whole room to go in shock.

“How did you know” Maurice said staring at her puzzled.

“Wild guess” she laughed “Just seems to fit the mysteriousness of this whole situation” She said growing quiet once she realized that no one denied it.

“O FUCK, We’re really living here with a vampire” She yelled in excitement as if someone told her that her birthday was coming a few month earlier this year.

“Yess” Sapphire said lowing her voice. “I suppose you want to hear his story now” She continued as the Wilson sister shook their heads.

……………



“It all started in the back woods of South Carolina. This was during the time not to long after slavery and our people believed in our own power.  Jayson was one of the sons from the prominent Willowbrook Family. The story have been told that this family originated from Louisiana and moved to South Carolina because Mr. Willowbrook a warlock was a traveling sales man and he had more opportunities there.

Mrs. Willowbrook was one of us but instead of being a witch she was a voodoo priestess one of the best of the best. All the white people went to her she had the highest clientele of the richest people so they were pretty well off.

One day Mrs.Willowbrook was approached by the daughter of her past slave owner name Sara J. Wilson the owner who sold her brother away from her family when she was small. She refused to do any services for her.

“Wait Wilson” Sina said puzzled. Sapphire looked at her realizing that she had to explain the connection.

The Wilson’s where the largest slave owners in the south. Especially, in Louisiana. On the Wilson’s plantation there were tons of witches and voodoo priestess, but they figured it was easier to deal with slavery then the witch trails up north so they endured through it using their magic to inflict pain on their master’s family. Causing the crops not to grow so they wouldn’t have to work.

Sapphire spinned around “To confirm your questions they were our ancestors slave owners too”

Anyway, Sara Wilson later sent her brother to Mrs. Willowbrook and they raped her. As revenge she put a spell on the whole family to kill off all the men and even up until today not one male in this linage have been able to live past the age of 30. As her punishment they forced her to move to here with where they were others like her. When they moved the Willowbrooks, Blackwilts, Ravenbirds, and the Wilsons all became good friends. Together they would cast spells on the white folks in Lilith in order to feed their families.

That’s when Jayson met the Wilson sisters. Lilly was the oldest and Countessa. Lilly was in love with Trion…...



The back door flew open and everybody jumped.

“Sapphire stop” !!!! Maurice yelled.

“I’m afraid that we have said to much” Sapphire said sitting down.

“You haven’t said anything at all really” Sina said trying to convince Sapphire to tell more.

“I have, you wouldn’t understand that name would trigger Jayson’s wrath more than anything, if he wants you to know more he would show it to you”. Sapphire continued.

“How can he do that”? Sina asked becoming a little afraid.

“He’s the only Vampire Warlock that have ever existed”



……………….To Be Continued……………….



Questions to think about before next week:

Why is Jayson so upset when he hear the name Trion?
What do Lilly and Countessa have to do with Jayson?
How did Jayson become a Vampire?
What role do the characters that are in the present have to do with the characters that are in the past?
How would this story come together, because I know right now it doesn't make much sense?


Tuesday, April 19, 2016

For My Fellow Nail Art Enthusiast..


The Thing I’ve Learned Since I Became a Nail Art Enthusiast

I’m writing this because I know I’m not the only nail art enthusiast out there and some of my readers may find this information humorous or helpful. It’s a lot so feel free to skip to the topic your most interested about.  Anyways let’s get into it..

·         All nail files aren’t the same- You have your standard emory board with a 180 grit or higher that only softly files your nail. A 100 grit nail file is your best friend when trying to file your nail into the prefect shape.



·         Nail Polish or Gel Nail Polish- All nail polish aren’t the same.  Some have a cheap formula that chips within a couple of days. Some poorly formula polishes take more than two coats to achieve your desired opaqueness. (Hack Time) To make your nail polish last longer wait until your nail polish is dry and instead of using a standard top coat opt for a gel top coat. Gel Nail Polish like nail polishes there are the poorly formula ones and the ones that cost a lot but worth every penny. The best thing about gel polishes is the drying time. Being that your curing it with a uv or led light drying time could be from 30 seconds to 2 minutes( No more messed up manicures due to rest hands)  If you’re not about them coins when it comes to good nail and gel nail polishes then invest in a good gel base coat, gel top coat or builder gel to prolong the life of your manicure.



·         The deal with nail tips- I know you’re probably tired of hearing this but all nail tips aren’t the same. You have full tips, medium well tips, and no well tips. Full tips are for those girl who love doing their nails but not want to place too much on their natural nail. Most full tip nails leave a small space for your acrylic or gel to adhere to your natural nail and some are for us girls who are in a rush and want to glue our tips on and paint them and run out the house. Medium wells have a small space on the back of the tip I call it (The Glue Craddle) simply because that’s where I personally apply my glue before putting it on my natural nails this type of tip is the standard salon tip which rest directly on the free edge of your nails. No well tip are the tips that have no space in the back there’s absolutely no well at all and it to rests on the free edge of your nails these tips are many for the camouflaging of the fake nail tip and your natural nail.



·         The two kinds of nail forms- Yes, they’re two kinds the first kinds of nail forms. One is similar to a sticker that you place under your free edge and sculpt out a nail. These are for the ladies who are more advanced with nail constructing. Let me tell you I tried a nail form before and when I took the form off the whole tip of my nail came off with it.  The other type of nail forms resembles full well nail tips with a small little tabs around it and what you do with these is fill up the back with acrylic and press them on your natural prepped nails wait from them to dry and pop them off. These form are for us who want to do something quick or are still in our beginning stage with nail art.



·         Gel or Acrylic- Acrylic is the most common method used for nail construction mainly because in my opinion it’s the easiest and it isn’t even that easy. With acrylic you can shape your nail and file them into perfection (read on for the different types of acrylic. The down fall to acrylic is the smell(this was the reason I switched to gel). Gel is a pain in the butt. The beautiful thing about gel is it doesn’t dry until you cure it so you have time to play around with the shape of it. Also it has a very faint smell if any smell at all. However, gel tend to self level and getting a bomb/ elevated apex takes a lot of practice.



·         Types of Acrylic- Depending on the acrylic you buy it could be a dream or a nightmare. Your best bet is to look around for acrylic. Many sites won’t sell to you if you don’t have a license which makes most of us turn to amazon for acrylic. Be careful some of the acrylic from china that’s on amazon is pure trash. It dries quicker, the constancy isn’t right and the smell is way too strong. There are some places on the internet that would sell to you if you don’t have a license so look for them and compare prices most starter kits are $50 dollars and in those kits you may receive a clear acrylic powder, a pink acrylic powder, a white acrylic powder, a #8 acrylic brush, acrylic liquid, and a bonder. Read the acrylic formula your purchasing some dry faster than others which could be a good thing if you’re an advance nail diva and others may take more time for the many of us that aren’t that advance.



·         China becomes your best friend- Altough the acrylic from china maybe trash. Everything else it pretty much ok. Nail art brushes are half the price when they are coming from over seas. So is the glitter, alloys, rhinestones, cabochons, 3D nail art, nail plates, stampers, and the list goes on! Mostly used sites for nail art are Banggood.com, Born Pretty Store.com, and Ebay. Remember to utilize YouTube for reviews on costlier products from these sites before purchasing them. Also keep in mind that if you order from overseas on today you most likely wouldn’t be able to hold your order in your hands until next month this time. The wait is a killer so plan ahead if your thinking about a special nail design for a special day. You may also be able to find some of these overseas product on ebay coming from a seller who located in the states but where a pack of 12 100 grit nail files cost $5.00 coming from china they cost $15.00 coming from Florida.



·         The art of 3D Acrylic designs: This by far is the one reason I wish I could play with acrylic all day long. Acrylic 3D designs are a huge craze these days. The secret to having a prefect flower or etc. Is to wait until the acrylic turns matte before sculpting them out.



·         Anything can become nail art- When I say anything I mean almost anything. Dried flowers, acrylic paint, sharpies, highlighters,  sticker, pieces of broken jewelry, and the list goes on.



·         Neon Color/Ombre Color Hack: Instead of apply way to many of anything that’s neon, or sponging on to many coat of ombre colors. First paint your nails with a white base it could be nail polish, acrylic paint, or white gel polish (don’t forget to wait until each is completely dried before proceeding to the next step.



·         No nail polish? – You can use acrylic paint as nail polish as long as you have a good top coat you’re good to go. Plus acrylic paint is a lot cheaper then nail polish. At Walmart it’s literally 55 cent per 2oz bottle. You can also use your old eyeshadow as nail color just simply apply a white based and grab you a used make brush and brush away.



I have so much more where this comes from so if you like nail art education. Either let me know personally through my email. Message me on google plus or leave a comment.



Love You Guys! XOXOXO



Petals Falling Until Next Time!!!

Monday, April 18, 2016

Embrace Your Individuality


Embracing Your Individuality

I’ve been pondering over this topic for weeks. Wondering if this is something I really felt needed to be addressed. I came the conclusion that it is an important topic because I notice that a lot of people struggle with embracing their individuality.

I know it sounds crazy but society I have promoted certain standards for decades and even centuries and some people struggle to embracing their own personal likes and dislike because of these standards.

For Example: Who created the standard of what is black and what is white?

Just because the majority of the people that shares the same race as you love to listen to hip hop and r&b. Doesn’t make you less black because you love country and rock.

You have to stop trying to fit into a box of what is considered “normal”, because in all actuality what is considered normal today. Would be labeled abnormal or outdated tomorrow.

It is perfectly okay to admit the you love things that most people don’t understand.

For Example: I personally love darker hues of every color (Violet, Black Blue, Emerald and etc) and most likely you would catch me wearing most black and grays. I just happen to like these things but I’m in no way gothic or emo.

We are all made differently from one another. Yet, we define ourselves based on similarity.

For Example: “Oh we are both 25 years old and she still reads manga, how childish?”

Embrace, your difference and never be ashamed of admitting what you like as a person. These are the things that make us who we are and anyone who can’t accept that. Doesn’t accept you..



I really hoped this help someone…

Love You Guys! XOXOXOX

Petals Falling Until Next Time…